Life As Such

Halting Moments

2009-09-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Forgiveness.

Listening to someone you were pissed at months ago, complaining about a wrongdoing someone did unto her, only to realise:- hey, that was exactly the same thing you were pissed at her for!!

It was kinda surreal, no particular emotions at that point in time. She was sad, when she was recounting her story, and I felt like telling her,"You know what, that was exactly how I felt when you did that to me. So yes, I truly understand how you feel right now." And that, with no malice nor anger felt.

That was how I felt too when I see you. I didn't know how to express myself anymore. Should I be angry whenever I see her? Should I be moody then? Or maybe just a straight face? Pretends that nothing has happened maybe?

I am tired. I am tired of being angry. I am tired of asking why. I am tired of regrets. I am tired of missing us.

I don't know what to do really. I realised I have forgave her without me knowing.

I always thought I knew what to do at most times. But as I age, I feel more naive, and somehow, more emotionally unstable. More individualistic.

Is it me? Is it my surroundings? Is it Singapore?

I miss the old me. A lot.

A Brilliant Start

2009-01-19T13:16:00.002+08:00

And yes, I have just changed job!!!!
Bought a car.
And will start to drive soon here in Sg!

I am now a Product Specialist in a pharma company and really hope this goes well for me this time.

I am pretty incoherent now as I am writting this on my mobile and am really hungry too. Stressed by the long queue here in the driving centre

Re-defining..."Happening"

2008-10-22T11:31:00.002+08:00

Who says your birthday month is your luckiest month?

1st week: Diagnosed with costochronditis after pain through the weekend. No worries, just some inflammation of lung cartilage that could happen due to your sleeping posture

2nd week: Had migraine over the weekend. On Monday, took MC due to UTI. No worries too, I have had that before.

3rd week:

9:00 am: Woke up to go to the loo.
9:08 am: What's that weird pain at my lower abdomen?
9:09 am: Rolled over on my side, and oh god, this is damn painful
9:10 am: THIS IS DARN PAINFUL. I can't even yelled out Darling's name, I had to call using my mobile phone next to me.
9:15 am: The pain is totally unbearable. I had one hand holding my abdomen and the other, clutching the bed rail.

AH. It is too long to type out the exact sequence of events. Clinic doctor came from downstairs and told us, that's it, she has to be rushed to the hospital. Called the ambulance. I havent had a chance to thank the dear paramedics who were so nice to me. Albeit in pain, I noticed what I have learnt when I was a Red Cross member being applied onto me! :D ok, that doesnt warrant a smiley face.

In the ER, I was pushed to scan immediately. They wanted me to do immediate surgery due to internal bleeding. Perforated corpus luteum. I was in SO SO SO much pain (worsened while they were doing a scan), I was SO SO SO darn scared of the words "immediate surgery", before I knew it, I was sobbing like a baby. :((((

Thank god for the senior consultant who came in, he thinks that I can be observed first, before any decisions were made. However, if in any case, my blood pressure drops, I would be rushed in for surgery already. This is not an open surgery, but rather a laproscopic surgery where they make 4 holes in the abdomen. Enough to freak me up. But the good point is, it takes only 2 days to heal the surgery wound.

And so I chose to believe in my body that it will resolve itself.

Night was horrible. I was poked with a huge cannola (big syringe: to make matters worse, the MO mis-poked and now my dear hand is bruised so badly), injected with painkillers, drawing of blood in tubes :( I had so much pain on my shoulders and rib cage due to the build up pressure that I dont even realise pain in my abdomen. :( Here, I want to thank my Darling who actually bought a Jazz CD that helped a lot in soothing me down.

Mom flew in the next morning.

I was better after the first night. But hey, it doesnt rain in California, but it pours! (according to Darling's mom)

Darling and Min went back home, only to find, our unit door, splashed with black tar!!! And our landlord's faces were all over with writtings on the wall!

Loansharks.

Landlord owed them money. They thought he stays here.

So we had an argument cum discussion with the landlord, on paying us back our deposit so that we can move. That means, searching for a new place yet AGAIN.

All in all, we lodged a police report, we spoke to the loanshark who believed that we are just tenants after all and now we have found a new place. Will be moving next month. Am working from home now.

La di la.

Lil newphew had epileptic fever in Pg, my dear mom was worried sick. And now, my elder sis, nearly fainted ytd, mom needs to fly back immediately to help her. Sigh.

Damn. It's not only pouring. It feels like hurricane has just happened.

Once again!

2008-09-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

I know. I disappeared for quite some time. Inactive on facebook. Inactive on Friendster. Inactive on my blog. Inactive on msn. :S:S I couldnt have been more inactive!!

Okay, just to update, for want of a better word, a lil about myself.

I have graduated in July. Convocated, did the mortar board throwing thingy yes. Moved away from the West side of Sg and now staying in Commonwealth with tukau Kwah. No, we still don't have a dog as our pet (that explains the much doggy eyed looks at other people's pets) and URGH, we sort of have new pets now eh tukau kwah? The whole family has come to stay in fact.
:( In other words, our house was infested with cockroaches, and now all three of us here are probably qualified to apply to pest company. I forgot. I won't and will NEVER do that.

Eek.

I am employed now, as an Analyst in a small business consulting firm specifically focused in healthcare. A great combination for me yeah?

Besides the working life, I do a bit of dance, hip hop and salsa, and have been back to reading some books! :)))

That's all now dear folks. My eyes are dying, as I am always staring at the PC, hence the lack of involvement in PC-based activities. Please understand *smile* but I am always up for a drink after work!!!!

5th June 2008

2008-06-06T14:12:00.001+08:00

... was a happpppyyyy day!!! Haven't had one in the longest time.

I am still all smiley.

It's Simply Amazing

2008-05-31T11:44:00.003+08:00

When I read about the uncontacted tribes in Amazon Rainforest, I am superbly in awe! To think that there are people out there, who have not seen any of us:- it's so intriguing. That they leave in a world of their own and probably thinking that they are the only ones in this wide wide earth. Whoa.

No, that's not their original colour. They painted themselves according to the news. But but.... what if it IS their original colour after all? :D

It would be really interesting if some scientists could get their hands on their genes and do some testing to understand their origins. And if only, we could understand their language, I would love, just love to hear what are their thoughts on us.

Taking Baby Steps

2008-05-22T01:58:00.006+08:00

Sometimes you falter, and you pick yourself up again. And sometimes, you lose confidence even in taking baby steps after faltering so many times.

bump:- it's alright!

plop onto floor:- once again!

balled over:- urh.... now that hurts

balled over and hit the table leg:- yikes... this is way harder than it seems. Maybe you are not supposed to use your legs???

balled over, hit the table leg and the lamp fell on me:- I am not too sure I am made to walk after all.

So I Gave

2008-05-12T17:59:00.001+08:00

And I put my hands together, and hope for the very best.

Life as an Undergrad in Sg

2008-05-09T11:33:00.004+08:00

Whooppee! I think I have graduated! Just had my last Final Year Project poster presentation last Tuesday with the rest of my peers. Guess that's the best part about poster. We all graduated together at the same time!

I have been thinking through of my 4 years here in NTU and I think, it has been pretty fulfilling in one way or another.

Let's see on what I have done in my years here:

1. Held a marker pen in my mouth and using it to draw on the poor naked man (he was thankfully covered with a cardboard)

2. Acted as a cavewoman and my name was Sylvia.

3. Tied a girl to a computer chair while signing my name on her arm.

4. Was a cheerleader and yes, it was with all the leg kicking, lifts and cheering in short skirt with spanky pants.

5. Was a full time dancer a part time student.

6. Tried latin dancing and even participated in ONE competition.

7. Went to my first ever dance audition and have never wanted to be in a club SO badly before.

8. Participated in my first ever hip hop dance competition.

9. Participated in my first ever dance concert.

10. Moved room every single year!

11. Represented my hall in ... ahem... swimming! It was the only time I ever wished I was a frog. Felt like a monkey in the water.

12. Represented my hall in tracks and badminton! Managed to come out fourth!!!!! The year before mine didn't even make it into finals! So not too bad eh.

13. Represented Malaysia.... MALAYSIA!!!! in badminton. Teehee. Mich as my partner. It was quite a screamy session with her.

14. Heard... erm... groans and moans of my pleasure from my neighbours before. THAT was not too pleasant I can tell you. I could never look at them the same again. :D

15. Was burgled.

16. Stayed near the man who steals bras with Mich donating 6 pairs. Really generous of her.

17. Won hall dancing competitions. Our team was feared by many. *laughs insanely*

18. Stayed at the dance studio, with my record being till 5 am in the morning! I really think half of my time in university is spent in the dance studios.

19. Worked part-time while studying

20. Attended an annual student conference organized by Harvard. Eye-opener.

21. Darling won ticks to Japan. So there I was, the person to bring to Japan!!

22. Went to Batam for a relxing trip with cheap massages.

23. Stole beer from a friend's fridge.

24. Participated in a drinking competition.

25. Nearly screwed over my first year of studies :p

26. Won 3rd place for business plan competition. What a trying period and the sweet adrenaline each time we got through.

27. Learnt karate!

28. Promoted Samsung handphones in a dance.

29. Choreographed an item in dance concert.

30. Yelled and argued with the co-choreographer. BAD. It was really bad. Me thinks it took him a few days before it registered to him. Oh. She yelled at me.

31. Was given an anonymous love letter in the library. That was quite bizarre. Really.

32. Was given 21 presents on my birthday by Darling.

33. OH. The victim of the I-want-to-stick-my-used-pads-everwhere-so-you-can-touch-and-see-it girl. *traumatised*

34. Did a marketing project for my FYP instead of lab research. :) I miss my FYP.

35. Slept on top of ADM school roof on a carpet till 4.30am. :)

36. Disguised as the "scary elevator ghost".

HAH. So many crazy times in uni! The dunkings, the surprises, the games, the dance practices, the talks with profs, the drinking times, the late nights of projects, the crazy talking-to-self-in-a-bid-to-try-to-memorize-biology-subjects... it may not be as exciting as some but it has been fulfilling to me nevertheless. :)

The 3 Beloved Kids at Home

2008-05-04T10:47:00.005+08:00

The 7-Year-Old

The inquitsitive of the lot. So inquisitive that sometimes I have problems answering his questions.

Nephew: Yiyi, is Spongebob Squarepants a girl or a boy?
Me: (They all, like me, love Spongebob Squarepants.Baffled. Isn't it obvious that it's a boy?). It's a boy of course!
Nephew: If it's a boy, why does his eyes look like a girl!!!!!(His finger pointing to his lashes).

Now, I have never asked myself that!

Nephew: Yiyi Yiyi, is Spongebob Squarepants a sea creature?

Me: No! It's a sponge!

Nephew: Then why is he living in the sea?

...

Nephew: Yiyi, sponges live in pineapples ah?

Me: No, he is just special!

And other few tonnes of questions including why is Patrick the Starfish's house a rock, why Sandy the squirrel stays under the sea (Is squirrel a sea creature Yiyi?) and why Mr. Krabs daughter, is a WHALE. :S :S and also why is Spongebob Squarepants's pet a snail (Is snail a sea creature?)

The 9-Year-Old Second niece is pretty smart. But lately has been so into looking pretty i.e. bringing about her pack of earrings and trying to ask me to wear the same teddy earrings she has!

And on her 14-year-old sis claiming that she copies her homework from her friend and everyone else does the same, the 9-year-old quietly said, " If you copy, you don't learn anything." Right on spot there, young one.

The last time I was back, she wanted an English name for herself for which she asked me,"Is Catherine nice?"

Me: But a lot of people have that name wor.

Niece: But it is K-A-F-F-R-I-N

Wow. I haven't heard that before, and she did not tell me where she got the name from. :S

The 14-Year-Old

The 14-year-old is in her teenage years and as usual, is always misunderstood and that does not go too well with raging hormones. I was shocked to the core to see her skype name as "Lonely Gal" one time. She doesn't have much interest in books but one thing though, she loves and is good at her handicraft work. So good that some relatives are willing to buy her pieces and I am very impressed.

I am glad for her, as she is one happy person (I think), who does not think too much and is very likeable by her friends.

They have all grown so fast!!!! Before I know, there will be in their teens already and my 14-year-old would be 21! I have taken care of them each since they were crying babies up to kicking little kids before I left here to Sg and somehow, I can't help but to feel I am missing out parts of their lives.

How Blind Can You Get?

2008-04-22T10:26:00.002+08:00

"If you are resisting it becomes hard on you, because they are rough. They manhandle you. I would just go through with it and then it was over." - The Star.

This was a woman who was trafficked by a man and kept inside an apartment for prostitution. She had served hundreds of men and only ONE ever offered to help. It gives me the chills to think that these men could just come, pay and then just left after getting what they want even though they must have known she was trafficked into this.

Poor girl was one day released by her trafficker and was caught by the French on possessing fake documents and have since discovered she has HIV.

And I shudder to think of how many of these women are outside now experiencing the same thing like this woman here.

Freeze for A Cause

2008-04-19T10:27:00.003+08:00

Oooo I find this real interesting and I want to do it too!!!

This group of people had a KL Freeze not too long ago. Wait, what is Freeze?

"Freeze is when a group of people gather at a certain location and do-not-move/freeze for a few minutes. It happens unannounced and unexpectedly to the others who are not part of the group thus creating a scene and gauging a response."

by Random Alphabets

They have done it in KL with like, 1000 people freezing together at the same time!

Now, they are doing it again on the 20th April, this time for the call to be environmental friendly! Hear Hear! All you have to do is tune your time according to theirs, wear green and freeze in an act that shows you care for the environment i.e. holding an LTR ticket to reduce CO2 emmissions! This time the freeze is called, Freeze for World Earth Day!

Argh. I want to do this!

KL Freeze

You know what'd be awesome? Everybody freezes at that time around the world!!!! How coll is that? *laughs* You'd be walking in Sg, and hey FREEZEEEEEE!!! and then you realise, hey, they are like 10 people around you who froze too!

Takers anyone? *sniggers*

Happy Thoughts

2008-04-09T20:17:00.006+08:00

Top 3 things that will inevitably put a smile on my face and lighten my day:

A) Dogs

B) Babies

C) Animals

Nope. Animals and dogs. 2 different kinds to me.

She Kinda Rocks

2008-03-28T10:48:00.004+08:00

You all know who is this?

The French First Lady!!!!

And she is now coined the "new Princess Diana"! I simply love the different cultures adopted all over the world :D

American Idol/Singer

2008-03-27T22:26:00.005+08:00

I kinda not like to call them IDOLS. After all, just by being the top in this competition does not make you an idol. It just makes you the best and most popular singer in the competition!

AH! But I don't really care now, both of my FAVOURITE DAvids are in to the next round! :D

Wedding Affair

2008-03-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

I watched the Grand Finals of Grand Finals of Wedding Affair just now. And boy was it interesting during the answering question session.

Couple 1

Host: (To the Groom) What would you do if you realised, after you are married, that she has chest hair? CHEST HAIR!!!!
(Groom looked at the Bride's chest dubiously, kissed his finger and placed it there briefly)

Groom: Seriously, I would shave it. It's QUITE a turn off.

Bride: FYI, he has a fettish for shaving hair.
(Seriously, that's a bit gross to reveal no?)

Host: (To the bride) What would you do, one month into your marriage, you realised that your husband farts so frequently that it's EVERY TWO MINUTES.

Bride: FYI, he does that frequently even now (dagger stare at the husband). I will tell him, no do-do if you fart-fart.

DO-DO?

Host: What? That's the new term for it now?
*laughs hysterically*

Couple 2

Host: (To the Groom) What would you do, if say you went to the mall to buy a thong for your fiancee and you saw your ex-lover. Would you ask her to help out and if you do, would you tell your fiancee?

Groom: No.1. I buy ALL her undies for her. (She was nodding frantically). No.2. We have been together for 10 years and she is my first love. So this situation would not come about.

10 points for him!

Host: (To the Bride) What if, one month into the marriage, you realised your husband has a weird fettish. He wants to wear all your undies to work. Yes, the ones he bought for you.

Bride: (Laughs) I am fine with it, he just love the smell of me all over him!!!

That's a killer one!!! WHOA.

Pooh. The 1st Couple won though.

One of its Kind

2008-03-26T09:56:00.002+08:00

"We are very concerned with the casual lifestyle adopted by the teenagers who use the short-messaging system (SMS) to interact with their friends,” said state deputy police chief Senior Ast Comm (II) Tuan Amiruddin Hamzah.

- Kota Bahru, The Star

CASUAL with SMS?

I call it moving with technology. I wonder what's a happening lifestyle to them?

The Devil

2008-03-25T23:11:00.005+08:00

Looney Tunes has been around since I was young and you know which character has always been my fave?

Nope. Not the Bunny.

Nor the Tweety.

Not the spitting Daffy Duck.

Nor Sylvester the Cat.

And absolutely not the Grandma.

YES! My favourite cartoon character in Looney Tunes is and always have been dear Taz! I like him!

Crazy, bad tempered, yet honest and gentle (at certain times).

And I recently found out, pardon my ignorance, that the real life little Tazmanian Devil looks like this!!!!

Simply adorable too eh? But a far cry from the brown whirling tornado from my Taz. Kinda sad to discover that :] *laughs*

No, I didn't expect the real Taz to do the whirling tornado thingy from the start if that's what you are wondering.

Coincidence

2008-03-22T13:33:00.002+08:00

Woman: Which part of Malaysia are you from?
Me: Penang!(proudly)
(Woman chokes a little)

Woman: Which part of Penang?
Me: Tanjung Bungah!

Woman: Really???!! Me too! I stay in Tanjung Park 2!
(My turn to choke)
Me: I stay in Tanjung Park 2!!!

Woman: I am house number 9! YOOOUUU???
Me: Number FIIIVVVEE!!!!

Gosh.

I met my neighbour here, in Singapore, in the company where I am currently doing my FYP now and happened to sat on the same table during lunch one day!!!

Long Overdue

2008-03-16T21:56:00.007+08:00

I was looking through my hard drive and found these pics. :D An indeed memorable event.

Gosh, I don't know why my expression was like this and I swear I wasnt trying to immitate the guy in the screen!

Darling got called for the 1st Prize!!!

2 free tickets to Japan!

Darling intending to snatch the ticket back.

Darling smilling from ear to ear!

Such blissful times.

Moves On

2008-03-16T16:39:00.004+08:00

Well, life's all well now after much brooding over. :) I am good now though I wish I could talk to busy Ms.Koay who seems to be working round the clock. *wink*

I have decided that if I am not offered a job by end of May, I am going to have a good holiday till July or August and then start search again. After all, why hurry to where exactly??

In the meantime, work has to be done, FYP has to be completed and Darling's birthday to be celebrated!

Annnnddddd.... I need to diet. It has been unsuccessful with all the time I spend away from home.

Closing Chapters

2008-03-05T15:42:00.004+08:00

As I lifted my eyes to the moving clouds above, I noticed that it is just like us; taking a form as they move on to the space, moulded by the wind.

I have had an internal struggle for as long as I remembered, searching for the comfort in the grief and sorrow that surround us from within. I am never one who can handle deaths well, and sometimes, I feel that the grief is eating me from inside. I always thought, the Christians could handle it much better, sincerely believing that they will meet their loved ones in Heaven and that is why, death is much bearable. Being a Taoist/Bhuddist, I never really know what's in store for us. And I suspect, that was the reason why I could not handle deaths very well. Acceptance comes with understanding and I never really understood that phase in life.

But it came home to me last Sunday. And this is what I choose to believe.

That human beings are the highest suffering that one could get of all beings. That the fact that we are granted with intelligence, with inexplicable complexed feelings, made us suffer the most. This longing love you feel for someone, this immense greed for wealth, the hatred and despise for someone, the grief and sorrow one feels; that nothingness indeed, is the greatest achievement.

That we should then, blessed are we with these feelings and thoughts, make the best of what we have now and to lessen the sufferings of people around us.

That we are just in one chapters of our lives and one does not die but one passes on after closing this chapter.

My Aunt has passed on last Sunday to another chapter for the better. I am happy, that she is no longer in pain and suffering like the rest of us here, knowing that we won't be able to see her again.

May you be happy now too dear Aunt, no longer bedridden but be the active one that you were.

*smiles*

Thank you Darling, for sharing with me.

Family Matters

2008-03-05T13:37:00.003+08:00

It is disappointing that I have to be writting this again. But nothing beats what happened last Sunday in the ward. It is funny how your dad threatened to hit my sister AND saying those hurtful things to my mom and you know what's funnier? The words that came out from your mouth. I see now, clearly, what we are to you people.

Do not even start telling me about Chinese tradition and the "regulations" you uphold in the family. Do not even start on me being English educated and not knowing about "what's right or wrong".
My mom, is as much as a daughter as your dad is a son and we are EVERY INCH the grand children as you are to our grandma. Why? What's the difference here? That we should condone and respect your every single act just because you are older even if it's outright wrong and worse still, hurting my family? It's such a joke to even say it out loud.

You talk about mending broken family ties. May I ask, with what exactly? With your dad treating my mom like this? With you condoning to your dad's actions by yelling at my sis that its not her turn to speak? If this is your said "Chinese tradition" or "Lee tradition", then let me tell you that I uphold respect and integrity; which is definitely not in the context of your said "Chinese tradition" or "Lee tradition".

I do not think that I need to highlight again, that my highest respect stands with my mom but apparently, the message did not get across the last time.

Nothing needs to be said anymore between us 2 families. I do not think the damage can be undone.

If you have thought, that it is your responsibility to lead the family by forming bridges and bringing the family together, and if you can't do it nor are you mending the situation but making it worse, might I suggest that maybe you should not even try leading in the first place.

FYI: Let's talk about your kind of respect, say, by chucking grandma onto our table during your wedding dinner and refuse her of the right to sit on the main table? I beg to differ, that it is NOT the kind of respect I or any other family members, uphold.

Drama eh?

A Day After The Leap Day

2008-03-02T15:27:00.020+08:00

Darling and I went to the National Museum today to see the Greek Masterpieces from Louvre. I loved it! All the masterpieces were great, specially flown in from France I think, but my personal favourite is non other than Venus herself, the symbol of beauty and love.

This particular sculpture of Venus holds an apple in her left hand. And each of their actions carry a specific meaning.

There was a time when Athena, Venus (also known as Aphrodite) and somebody's wife (I forgot who), were fighting for who was the fairest of them all and approached Zues to answer.

Zues, knowing that he shouldn't meddle with women's affairs (wise move!), directed them to Paris! This is the Orlando Bloom from the movie of Troy if you all remember. Yes, the one begging on Brad Pitt's feet. Zues told Paris to decide and then give the apple to one whom he thinks is the fairest of them all. The sombody's wife promised Paris something else (which I really can't rmb), Athena promised Paris that he would win in all warfares and will make him the emperor of Asia Minor, and Venus, promised him the love of the most beautiful woman in the world.

Paris chose the love of the most beautiful woman and hence gave the apple to Venus. And this brought about Helen of Troy to Paris later on. (Should he cose Athena, he would not be begging on Brad Pitt's feet)

This is Ares, who had an affair with someone I think.

This is Athena, the goddess of warfare.

This carries a romantic story of a man (on the right) who lost his newly married wife (centre) to Death and has tried to retrieve her from the Death itself. The man on the left is a messenger from the Death, trying to take her back.

HO ho ho. This is quite a shock. This is a picture depicting Zues's love/like/admiration to a young man. Zues is holding a rooster usually given by a person to show his love to a younger one. *grins*

This is the young man thatZues liked/loved/admired. And the fact that he is on the other side of the vase, and the fact that it is a vase, it depicts the 2 of them going in endless circles. Yikes.

Thereafter, we went prawn fishing!!!

The eager prawn man in the first half an hour, after having caught 3 prawns!!!

This is how we keep our caught prawns alive.

The Prawn Man's wrestling feat with the caught prawn.

The Prawn Man attempting to unhook the caught prawn.

Failed. Thus the tutorial lesson from the man beside.

The Prawn Man one hour into catching nothing and feeding.

Feeding means the prawn took the bait without getting hooked. Yes, the prawnS outsmarted us. We went to all sorts of measures including promising the prawns bulks of TREASURE should it choose out bait! *grins*

After 3 hours, we caught pathetically THREE prawns while people went home with baskets.

The Prawn Man grilling his catch of the day.

The Prawn Man with his grilled and shelled prawn!

*laughs*

We just thank god we weren't born to be fishermen!

Lethargy

2008-02-28T20:12:00.002+08:00

PHUH! I am soooo tired.... brain draining and physically tiring. Just got back from the interview. Thought it went better than the first but then again, the other interviewees are REALLY high-flyers and articulate. And I heard they still cut off ppl at the 3rd interview, so it's not just a formality thing *faint*

But nevertheless, made some new friends, met an old friend and more importantly, I enjoyed myself!

One of the candidates said her interview went like this,

"How many traffic lights are there in Singapore?"

Interesting eh?

Suggestive

2008-02-26T10:52:00.002+08:00

You know, I know it took me frigging long, but I suddenly realised, why back in those secondary school days, our teachers always disapproved us for using a particular song for dance. I am never the kind who listen to lyrics first, rather, it is always the beats and tune that draw me to a song and I will get on to the lyrics much later, sometimes singing along without realising the meaning. And I always thought it was pretty ridiculous for the teachers to ban us from a certain song.

Now I get it. After putting myself in their shoes. Imagine this, you a teacher, sitting in the field, wacthing your students go,

Boom boom boom boom, I want you in my room, let's spend the night together, from now until forever!

or

When 2 become 1, I need some love like I never needed love before, wanna make love to ya baby!

or

Just come along baby take my hand, I need a lover tonight
Ohohoh ohohoh-this is what I want to do Ohohoh ohohoh-lets have some fun Ohohoh ohohoh-one on one just me and you Ohohoh ohohoh

RIGHT. Forget the ohohoh ohohoh. You get my point.

Grateful

2008-02-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

I am SO elated!!! My recruiter called! SHe called me personally to give me feedback on my first (totally screwed) interview! And to tell me I got through to 2nd round!

*prays*

I am so thankful I met such a nice woman.

Thank you Recruiter!

Improvement?

2008-02-17T10:18:00.002+08:00

I think I am right to believe that people back in those ages usually die from

1. Eaten by a tiger
2. Eaten by a lion
3. Fell down from a hill cliff
4. Fell down from a high tree
5. Stoned to death by the people
6. Clubbed to death by people

The list is obviously not exhaustive. Let's take a look at how ppl pass on these days.

1. Lying under the sun
2. Smoking or inhaling smoke
3. Eating too much
4. Just that your parents/family members have it and now you do too
5. No particular reason

Really, aren't we getting a bit more fragile here? Well, maybe, people die from lying under the sun too last time but from with the information I have on hand now.... I do feel like a piece of glass now.

Sweet Valentine

2008-02-15T17:48:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to all!!!

Eventful

2008-02-15T17:34:00.003+08:00

Such a contented feeling to be home! And such meeting ups too :)

1. Bumped into my student who was working in Coffee Bean while I was ordering. Boy he is so big now! Was only 15 the last time I taught him. He gave me a staff discount and sat down to chat with me. And told me the naughtiest of the lot, is now a training pilot!! *smiles* And he himself is representing Malaysia in Karate!

Oh how my children has grown!

Kidding. That was just a bit of drama.

2. This is a shocker. I was buying biscuits before I went to the airport on my last day in Penang, when somebody said,

Auntie: Ah girl, lu be jin wa liao ar? (Ah girl, you can't recognise me already?)

I looked up. And my jaw fell.

That woman behind the counter, is ... is none other than the woman who used to sell stationery in the small stationery shop in my freaking PRIMARY school!!!!! And no, I haven't bumped into her for the last 12 years. And no, I am not particularly close to her. And NO, I am not one of those wandering kids who like to hang around in the stationery shop!

HOW HOW HOW is that possible!!!!????? Beats me. She remembered me as though it was just yesterday that I came out of primary school. Freaky right? I was in a state of shock throughout my journey to the airport.

Panting

2008-02-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

The recruiter called today!!!! :D :D :D (She must have found my "JOKE" funny!;p)

Bless me, interview's on 18th Feb!

WISH ME LUCK!!!

Catastrophic

2008-01-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

GOSH GOSH GOSH.

Recruiter: Where are you from?

Smart-ass me: Penang!

Recruiter: Really? My husband's from Penang too!

Smart-ass me with the fabulous remark: Everyone's husbands from Penang!!!!!

I should be BARRED from speaking when I am sleepy!!!!!

And I know no one's husband's from Penang!

Cut the Extra

2008-01-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

I need to slim down! And tone up!

Festive Mood

2008-01-26T11:10:00.000+08:00

I am in such a festive mood right now I feel like waving my arms in the air! *waves* I am going to meet my cousin and her family in a while, Darling and I are celebrating Valentine's Day next week (cost-effective) and I am going back to Penang for a week for CNY!

And somebody told me she thought I was 20 years old!!!!! (somebody needs to come up with the elixir of forever youth soon ...SOON..... my skin refuses to wait so long)

My sister looks like she has taken some kind of elixir and is not sharing it with me!! For heaven's sake, she is 34 (or was it 35?) and a mother of 3! She is far left by the way. Someone once thought she was still schooling. SCHOOLING!!!!!!

My mom looks adorable here! I love you mommy! Wo ai lu! :p

Motherhood

2008-01-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

OOOOOOOO I just watched a the Tyra show on issues of motherhood and gosh, some of them sort of blame their babies for changing their lives! And body!

"My nipple felt like it was going through food processor all the time!"

That's on breastfeeding.

Cringe.

Food Processor.

Bit on Self

2008-01-14T11:33:00.000+08:00

Right. I am going back to dance after a break since August. Pretty nervous about it actually but I am really looking forward to be back in the circle and most of all, to be able to dance!

In these few weeks, I have sort of made up my mind of what I want to do.

"The end point is the most important. It doesn't matter how you get there."

Which is why I want to be a Medical Sales Rep. I know it is going to be difficult, persuading the doctors and waiting for 100 hours for them to be available to listen to you before they snub you off. But I am strongly convinced that this is the way to THE point that I want to be.

Next on the list, I want to start a social enterprise. For a cause. But I can't quite make up my mind on which cause. Darn, I should spend more time researching on it.

On a different note,

"The couple went to great pains to conceal their relationship with reports that Khan had even been smuggled into Diana's Kensington Palace residence in London in the boot of her butler Paul Burrell's car."

Yes, Khan was also a former lover of the demised Princess Diana. Why can't they leave it as it is?

Self Prediction

2008-01-12T19:44:00.000+08:00

For the year 2008, KN will graduate from SBS, NTU with a Second Upper Class with Honours in Biological Sciences with a minor in Business. She then clinches a position in Janssen Cilag as a Medical Sales Rep. She will start work in September and 3 months into work, she is already a top agent.

Before starting work, she will travel to Mexico with her boyfriend under the Global Summer Studies Programme and spend 4 glorious weeks around Mexico. As a side dish, she also makes a stop in LA and met up with her boyfriend's friends who shows them around. The rest of her time will be spent in sweet Penang with her loved ones.

In July, she will attend her school's convocation as well as the convocation ball, catching up with lost conversations with her pretty enstranged classmates. In the same month, she will rent a new HDB nearer to town, somewhere along Clementi and Redhill, and then moves in with her dear friend, Min. The little unit is cosy, equipped with a telly, gas stove and a washing machine. They will be looking into having a dog of their own. At the same time, she and Min will be handling the social entrepreneurship that they set up a few months back, raising charity funds for the cancer stricken people.

WOW. If only dreams and wishes come true. That would be mine for the year.

First Day

2008-01-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

I brought my nephew to his first day in primary school. Boy has he grown. I still remember that 8-pound baby that he was 7 years ago. SEVEN.

He told me he was pretty nervous actually. :)

Gone are those wooden chairs that would "bite" your little butt.

I was looking through some letters and cards when I was back in Penang, and my mind goes... this one is from Shu-Wen 8 years ago, this one is from Chuen Fong 7 years ago, this letter is 11 years ago, this note is 10 years ago, this card is 5 years ago ... GOSH.

Where did all the years go?

Heartless

2007-12-19T12:07:00.001+08:00

Ying Ying was the little girl who was killed my the mother's boyfriend mid this year in Penang. Chopped into pieces and such. You get the picture.

Well, people being INNOVATIVE, have came up with a documentary about it. Yes, on her being chopped into pieces.

Lucky for us, the Penangites DVD sellers refuse to sell it out of respect for the father. Though I am sure you can always get a copy of this in Batu Ferrighi.

I wonder what's so documentary about it.

And This Is Why

2007-12-19T11:44:00.000+08:00

Darling making flu remedy for me during the exam period.

Darling cooking porridge for me during the exam period.

Darling waking up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for me for no particlar reason.

The delicious breakfast.

The 3 sleep companions that my Darling bought for me! I notice all of them have rather large mouths!

Actions speak louder than words. Not any guy would share household chores with me willingly. Not any guy would gladly do the mopping of the house for you lest your hands would hurt. Not any guy would walk automatically to the laundry area to help you hang your clothes when it's done washing without being asked to do so.

I am joyous regardless of being the poor country rats that both of us are.

Family Matters

2007-12-17T20:11:00.000+08:00

Dear XXX,

I have just talked to my mother on the phone today and I believe by this, you know why am I writting this email? What she told me just now was again, I felt, another dissapointment and I do admit that I am terribly upset about it. I don't mean to sound offensive here but I believe that there are some things that I wish to convey to you about how I feel personally and I hope you will be able to understand me.

My mom has made a fair bit of choices and decisions in our family matters; and decisions are what decisions are meant to be, meaning that you can't always please everyone. But nevertheless, decisions MUST be made and my sisters and I have accepted those decisions with open minds. We reserve our highest respects for our mother and for who she is, the decisions she made and we chose to stand by her through thick and thin. We don't expect other outsiders to understand our family matters nor do we wish for them to do so but yes, we do expect our family members to respect us for who we are today; after all, that is the very basic meaning as a family. I personally do not feel that what we have been through should render us to receive less levels of respect from other people.

I guess you would have as much as guessed this by now, but the reason on why we never turned up during your tea ceremony was because my uncle wasn't invited. We have always accepted him as a part of our family so yes, it came as a shock to us then, after all the hype that my sisters and I had in going to your tea ceremony. And families make decisions as a family.

I also personally think that if my sisters and I have accepted the path that my mom has chosen to take, then I think it is good enough a reason for anyone to just accept it and be happy for us. I think you would understand my point of view right?

I am truly upset over the matter and of course dissapointed and feel the need to tell you what is bothering me. I have such love and respect for my mother and it angers me to see her being unjustly treated like that. I hope I have made myself clear then.

It is such a sad thing, for what was supposed to be a happy wedding event with a purpose of bringing the family together to celebrate for the joyous couple, have to turn out like this.

Note to Self

2007-12-13T11:56:00.000+08:00

It's interesting how we continously discover about ourselves as we go on in our daily duties no? I have made another new one. I realised I am NOT efficient when I am idle. *laughs* Funny but it is indeed true! I can't remember the last time I was THIS free, with nothing much to look forward to everyday. I have always been so busy since my secondary school days that when it stops suddenly, I don't quite know how to go about it. I also realised I studied harder when I don't have time to spare in one sem where all work, dance and studies caught on! I am ROTTING! I no longer bother about the news, I heck the sweeping of floor, I don't even wash my toilet as I used to do every 2 days!

Have I mentioned how I don't look forward to searching for jobs? It brings your confidence level down, not to mention popping up everyday to check for any interesting mails and feeling all distressed again because none came in. I can't help it!

I need to be home.

Quiz Box

2007-12-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Weird Dream

2007-12-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

I dreamnt. That I was a MOTHER of a little boy of 2 or 3 years old. And that I neglected him. I would be napping, waking up only to find him in a puddle of his own urine, only to realise that he hadn't bathe since yesterday. Sometimes he would hid underneath the table, and I realised that I forgot to feed him. But yet, he was still all smiley telling me he was fine. GOSH. Was I afraid that I might neglect my child one day?

What Pushes You

2007-12-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

I always wonder, what went through their minds at that point of time. To be so gutsy to take on that single journey to the realm that is unknown to everyone of us. To do it alone,knowing that you will never see your loved ones again.

I wonder what flashed across his eyes when he jumped. Was it regret? Did he realise that there is no more turning back when the feet is no longer on a solid platform?

My condolences to Mr. Ting.

Idealistic

2007-12-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

I think I am idealistic. And for that, I think that it is only practical to accept that life might hold a lot of dissapointments for me; simply because, it is just NOT as ideal as it may seem.

Then again, don't YOU have an ideal view of something yourself? That people, no matter how evil they are, might just have a little good in them? That maybe we should not be pissed with the moody waitress just now, because then maybe her boyfriend just broke up with her today?

HAH! Maybe I am not idealistic, but rather, I am pretty optimistic? Everybody deserves to be given that little benefit of the doubt after all.

Planning for Post Exams

2007-11-25T09:06:00.000+08:00

Let's see. I will end my exams in 2 days' time! (that will be a tough paper by the way) I have so many things in my mind of what I want to do!

1. Get a good srcub

2. Trim my forest look a like brows

3. Do a facial.

4. Personal manicure. :P (I enjoy pampering myself by grooming and more often than not, I usually don't have time for all this.

5. I need to do something to my untamed mane! It looks like a broom!

6. Get a swim and a good jog. (I have put on SO much weight; it's unthinkable)

7. Read the books that I have been wanting to read.

8. Buy some new clothes. (I have been losing clothes for some weird reason)

9. Buy presents for mommy, sis, bro in law. (I have been wanting to buy things for them)

On the people I want to meet and places I want to go:

1. Of course, Min is at the top of my list. (happy? *laughs* zoukout!) and Francis too!

2. Bee Lee will be staying at my place for her biz trip.

3. Mel for pizza and drinking frenzy

4. Ras for yakking and eating frenzy (why do I contradict myself?)

5. Spend more time with Deon, Bish, Mich, Seong and Jing.

6. Want to go out with Daphne and Jenny.

7. I think I will make an appointment with Sally too.

58 Uh-oh, I need to meet up with my FYP supervisor soon (Means reading the marketing book asap)

9. Need to do a group celebration for the Biz Plan Competition.

10. Need to attend the Biz consultancy course that we won.

11. OH! I nearly forgot. *sheepish smile* Needs to meet up with one of the judges who is interested in our idea.

12. That reminds me that we need to meet up with my team's mentor!

13. I also have to meet cousin for her to update me on her wedding!

14. I also need to start applying for jobs!!!!

Okay, now that I have listed it out. I dont think I will have much time left after exams to finish all these before returning to Pg for a while.

Yikes!

The New Addition

2007-11-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

ooooooo another one to the family! Nope, not one of my sis's this time, but my cousin's! Such tiny little eyes but adorable ones too!!!

I have a feeling my kid next time will have eyes like his! *roars*

A big welcome to dear Mann Ronn!

Exhausted

2007-11-20T13:10:00.000+08:00

Ever came back from an exam and felt like you have been to war? This is how I feel right now. URGH.

Brain's not working anymore.

Feline Frenzy

2007-11-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

Really, I don't think the cats look TOO happy with themselves.

Can't they just do away the dresses and let them be?

Wedding Bells

2007-11-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

My cousin has asked me to help her during her wedding! :D

Congratulations dearie *smiles*

Su Yin's wedding on the 23rd Dec
Darling's sis's engagement party on the 24th Dec
Cindy's wedding on the 28th Dec

Is December a month for marriage or what?

Farewell

2007-11-16T19:54:00.000+08:00

Kris has left.

Just said our goodbyes to dear old Kris. It's pretty sad though, but I am definitely happy for his change of job and the good times he can look forward to in China. New place, new experience!

Kris has been a very good companion to me since my days in Hall Three when I first entered university. When I had no one and Kris was the only Malaysian in my block whom I happen to click very well with! Who would have thought that we would also become housemates someday! *smiles*

Hope to see you real soon ol' man.

Save the turtles!!

2007-11-15T09:43:00.000+08:00

Smart innovation!

"The use of circular-shaped hooks lets fishing crews more easily remove hooks from the mouths of loggerhead, leatherback and other turtles caught up in long lines meant to catch fish and prevents them from bleeding to death"

Turtles and tortoises are such pitiful creatures. Walk so slowly to begin with and to top that up, when a predator attacks, all they do is suck their heads back in!

No such thing as "Stand up and fight a battle, son!"

Russian Oil Spill

2007-11-13T10:07:00.000+08:00

Killed 30 000 poor birds which were finding shelter near the shore during the storm. *sigh- heart aching*

On a totally unrelated matter, I wonder, how people commit massacres, shooting random people they met along the school corridor and then, shot themselves.

Did they shoot themselves out of guilt?
No, I dont think so.

Did they shoot themselves because they, anyway, thought of dying in the first place? So, might as well bring the others down too?
Maybe.

Then, what is it that they glorify about the previous people who had also committed a massacre and then kill themselves?
That they were damn brave people?

Are these people so depressed that they no longer see faith in other folks?
Maybe.

Then why in the world they talk to other people about weaponry and commiting massacre!!! It only goes on to show that they are not the only ones in the world! Which means they are not entirely depressed or lonely then!

"he had been in touch with MANY PEOPLE through the Internet, with whom he discussed videos and Web sites on "military issues, violence and weaponry,"

How many of them out there share the same sick thoughts?

Testing

2007-11-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

Testing out the new template! I like it though it is a bit narrow.... wish it'd be wider!

Inequality

2007-10-28T10:21:00.000+08:00

“We have no choice but to make sure that our women are well trained and skilled if we want our economy to continue developing,”

Funny, that it should come from a woman minister. No choice???

Tribute

2007-10-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

My tribute to Mr. Lim Goh Tong, who has passed away this morning.

You are indeed, a great man.

I wonder

2007-10-15T16:10:00.000+08:00

" Do not let your job conform you next time."

I wonder whether I will be able to tolerate thoughtlesness of certain people next time.

I wonder whether will I be able to look forward to my job everyday.

I wonder whether have I made the correct decision for myself.

Growing

2007-09-23T10:27:00.000+08:00

After like.... wha?? how many months has it been since I last wrote?? *smiles* And tonnes of things had happened to me since then! Let's see:

started my work with eFusion, quit and started my work with International Relations Office
Darling promised me to Redang or Tioman and he still owes me!
started my final year in NTU
moved out from hostel and now staying in a cosy unit near NTU
met a few pretty important people
joined business plan competition and wow, got into semi finals now
wants to win bpc so that my grad trip will be free!! muahahahahahah

My condolences extended to Nurin's family... and to the other families who have lost or nearly lost their loved ones... I truly wish something else could have been done to prevent those horrific actions by those sick people of whom I wonder, what had happened to them before to ignite such terrible acts. In some ways, I think somewhere along their bringing up, somewhere must have gone very wrong.

crossroads

2007-05-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

It is at the crossroads in lives that you begin to wonder about the paths that you have taken and the roads that were abandoned. It is at this moment, when I was trotting confidently along, that I suddenly stopped short and looked up, only to realise that the front looks scary actually. That I haven't seen it coming all along. That there aren't flowers blooming ahead. At least, not within my sight.

And the worst part is that when you turn frantically around trying to find the "Help" sign, only AGAIN to realise that there isn't one right now. You feel LONELY.And when the night comes, when the darkness swallows you deep within, you realise the only thing you can do is to wrap yourself with the bare arms and stare up into the sparkly sky, hoping for the best.

And when dawn breaks, there you are, crouching next to a tree, smilling into the new beginning, ready to brave the new day again.

hey hey HEY!

2007-04-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

Leadership Quiz - Your Results

Your results indicate that your leadership style is both: Participative and Delegative

Participative Leadership

Participative leaders accept input from one or more group members when making decisions and solving problems, but the leader retains the final say when choices are made. Group members tend to be encouraged and motivated by this style of leadership. This style of leadership often leads to more effective and accurate decisions, since no leader can be an expert in all areas. Input from group members with specialized knowledge and expertise creates a more complete basis for decision-making.

Delegative Leadership

Delegative leaders allow group members to make decisions. This style is best used in situations where the leader needs to rely on qualified employees. The leader cannot be an expert in all situations, which is why it is important to delegate certain tasks out to knowledgeable and trustworthy employees.Remember, good leaders utilize all three styles depending upon the situation.

For example:
Use an authoritative style if a group member lacks knowledge about a certain procedure.
Use a participative style with group members who understand the objectives and their role in the task.
Use a delegative style if the group member knows more than you do about the task.

This is what happens when I am too bored. URGH.

http://psychology.about.com/library/quiz/bl-leadershipquizbc.htm

2007-04-15T10:09:00.000+08:00

"Mohamad Rosle Ahmad wrote in a letter to the editor: "I am sure Enron and Worldcom paid more than top dollar for their top executives, and look where their companies are now - six feet under."
Lee Kuan Yew, whose title is minister mentor, said naysayers like this need a reality check.
"I say you have no sense of proportion; you don't know what life is about," he said last month."

NOW we know why the increase the sales tax. The famous words of Lord Acton reminds us that "absolute power corrupts absolutely".

On a different note, I think I will die during the holidays. Work during daytime, dance my soul out night time. Practices are on every Mon, Wed, Thurs and Fri. Sat is still unknown and probably used to choreograph moves. Goner.
Boy, do I need a long holiday this time. No more studying. God knows I was still overwhelmed by last semester. 6 biology subjects and that's not inclusive of our 3-hour lab time every week! What the freak? And only a month break before this semester (4 bio and 1 business) started and yes, it felt way too short. I don't know what my school wants seriously, you know you have studied more than enough when Master exchange students are sitting in the same lecture hall with me and our undergraduate students in other countries have nothing to take but Master's subjects. I am becoming nerdier by the second.

Someday

2007-04-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

You know what I'd really like to do someday?

1. Visit North Pole

The rare phenomenon of the beautiful sun and moon together. ( Come to think of it, I don't know if this is even possible)

2. Visit South Pole

and see penguins in the wild!

3. Climb Mt.Kinabalu

Can you picture the satisfaction and victorious feeling upon scaling it????

4. Feast my eyes on Mt.Everest and Mt.Fuji

Feast, not climb. I think the Himalayas of Nepal is really beautiful.

5. See the whales

6. Galapagos Islands! I forgot this one!

I have always been very fascinated by evolution and this is the very land that keeps all the evidences and mysteries! To this very day!

7. Prince Edward Island

I love Anne of Green Gables collection (credit goes to my Darling who found the entire collection for me!)and really L.M Montmogery was so amazing! This book has thought me loads of things since childhood days ,especially one that I held onto very strongly - hope. And she had painted such a beautiful picture of PEI, of dreams and hopes! There is even a place where they built the Anne of Green Gables house for tourism. But then again, maybe visiting it might not be such a good idea after all. It would be like, being awakened from a beautiful, sweet dream, don't you think so?

Yes, I am not such a city girl. Don't really like the concrete buildings. Feel suffocated at times, don't you think so? The serene beauty of the nature can never be represented by those tall, concrete blocks. And it's sad, how we often tend to forget to pause for a few minutes, to just turn to the tree next to us and think, I wonder how old you are now?

Fumbling

2007-04-10T15:50:00.000+08:00

okay okay I know this is not the best time to be thinking of what I want to do next time but I can't help it!!!!! I have been pondering and I can't help but to think that I can't just settle for a 9-5 job of an SGD of 2500 a month (and that's IF I get a proper job)!!!! I am such a spender! How am I suppose to support my dad and mom AND pay my study loan AND the bills, the rental, the good food that I love and the nice clothes that I can only drool for????!!!! Not to mention the travelling around the world that I'd like to do. Not to mention saving up a bit for studying AND for rainy days. Oh, I forgot to mention a car. *faint* And most likely a dog too while we are at it.

Since Exploit Tech came down, I have been thinking about becoming an IP agent. Reasons being:

1. It has everything to do with what I am studying
2. Science and technology is moving so fast and everyone needs their products or ideas to be patented
3. It involves one to predict whether the product will be able to make it or not in the industry ( I think I would like that)
4. It is professional. LOL.
5. OK, this sounds invalid but I can't help it that every numerological, horoscope and zodiac predictions ALWAYS and I mean always say that I should be involved in business, sales and law. Maybe this is good? its a combi of business and law anyway.
6. I like consultancy and advising as well.

Reasons NOT becoming one:

1. The manager I met told me that you have to know your stuff really well because you get shitty professors coming up to you saying, "Do you have a PHD?" before you even start advising. And worse response if you tell them your product is not going to be able to make it outside there.
2. Becoming an IP agent means doing an extra year in IP academy to be a registered IP agent. Now, I think I should also say that studying law doesnt exactly excite me.
3. I am not a very methodological person (as there are many procedures to obtain a license).

6 to 3??? hhhmm....... or heck, maybe I should just start a business. :P

ashe and ashlee

2007-04-07T21:10:00.000+08:00

Should have uploaded this but i forgot! yes!the 2 of them were in my university giving classes! :)

Walt Disney

2007-04-07T10:30:00.000+08:00

He was an admirable man. One who was called the father of animation. One who had such vivd dreams and imagination that only words such as; impressive, inventor, genius: can be associated with him. I owe it to him to believe and hope. I owe it to him to remember that good and beautiful things do happen after all. I owe it to him for learning my English when I was young. How absurd of me to be sitting in front of the TV at every 5.30 in the evening to watch cartoons before or after playing outside. And it is even more absurd that a fully grown woman of 22 will answer to her nieces and nephew like that:-

Nieces and nephew: YiYi (auntie)!!!!!
(they will be in the living room and me in the room)

22-year-old: Yes??

Nieces and nephew: Spongebob Squarepants is on now!! Come out!!!!!!!!

22-year-old: OKAY!
(races to the living room)

Yes, I still love to watch cartoons to this day. And nothing could change that. I love the idea of hope and belief it brought to me. I love the idea of simplicity holding the beauty. I love the idea of how immature and childish it may seem, but yet has a deeper meaning to it. I love the idea that a simple 2-D animated cartoon is able to contain such a message and still make us laugh our heads off.

It never really hit me the immense work and art of Walt Disney until I went to Tokyo Disneyland. He did it. Everything over there is so magical, so true. I saw all the Japanese kids over there, wide-eyed, listening to every word that Mickey said, and was thinking how lucky these kids are. I was amazed, not just by the beautiful buildings but simply the feeling of me being inside Disneyland. I was the happiest of all the happy girls that day. It is the only feeling where one can ONLY feel it in Disneyland. I felt like I was brought back to my kiddy days. Like, everything could really come true if you believe in it. And, it will, you know.

Thank you, Mr.Disney, for not only building the most famous theme park in the world, but also proving to us that, really, we should keep on believing and hoping, holding on to our dreams and knowing that it will come some day.

Oh, just to note, Hong Kong Disneyland, is not that great.

High School Never Ends

2007-04-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

I love these awesome lyrics! :P

Four years you think for sure
That’s all you've got to endure
All the total dicks
All the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature
Then when you graduate
You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT!
This is the same as where I just came from
I thought it was over
Aw that’s just great

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex
Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High school never ends

Check out the popular kids
You’ll never guess what Jessica did
How did Mary Kate lose all that weight
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom’s straight
And the only thing that matters
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn’t matter if you’re sixteen or thirty-five
Reese Witherspoon,She’s the prom queen
Bill Gates,Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback
Seen it all before I want my money back!!

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who’s the best dressed and who’s having sex
Who’s in the club and who’s on the drugs
Who’s throwing up before they digest
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
And you still listen to the same shit you did back then

High school never ends
High school never ends

Women abuse

2007-04-01T10:50:00.000+08:00

The women over at New Delhi,

- sexually abuse by husband (sometimes in fron of children) and more of them being exploited into sex tourism
- after tsunami, women sold off their KIDNEYS to make ends meet.
- with the amount they have, hopefully to help the family, was taken by the husband to drink
- after selling their kidneys, no proper follow up medication was given, leading to severe abdominal pains preventing them from work.

Why women are always the subject for abuse????? GROSS.

Places like Japan ( I know its the culture and I should respect them) but the super blown up ego of the men over there.... i tell you....feels like smacking their heads! I will never work for a Jap company!

What's wrong with them? At the end of the day, down right to the core, it's just the difference of you having a Y gene and me having a double X. If we respect you men, why cant's we get the same amount of respect back? HAH.

And there have been reports that Y gene is degenerating. Unstable telomeric ends. Facing extinction maybe???

Which goes back to proving my theory. That we were hemaphrodites (self-fertilised: have both sperms and eggs) to begin with and there was no male back then! *laughs gleefully*

Note: something is wrong with my blog. damn. all the writtings for previous post was gone!

Darling's Pre-birthday

2007-03-31T11:27:00.000+08:00

22nd March 2007! The usual people went out and celebrated darling's birthday and it was fun fun FUN! *smiles*
Went to XO bihun for a yummy dinner. Oh, and the group met Kris's gf for the first time!

I love the XO bihun! the group indulging in it...

The guys whom I met since my first day in NTU.... We no longer keep in touch that often anymore but still.... somehow pretty crazy when we got together. i guess some things just don't change after all... :) so nolstalgic to see the 4 of them again. (though for some funny reasons they refuse to take this pic at first:*rolls eyes* - GUYS)

That's darling the pre-birthday boy!

After XO bihun, *slurpz* we went on to Settlers'! and I love the place to pieces! Ok, this place rocks because...you can hang out and bond with your friends and no one gives a care how loud you laugh AND at the same time, you get to play games! Well, basically, this place serves all kinds of board games. They have 200 over variety of board games imported from all over the world...you can choose between the 'reflex games' (which are just mindless where you scream and shout but fun nevertheless) and the strategy games (where you use your brain). After a series of mindless games... screaming ourselves hoarse and laughing our heads off...we went on for more strategy-based games. oh, they have someone explaining all the games to you!

Balderdash!
The game goes like this.
You have an umpire that draws a card and asks questions from it... say..

umpire: what happens on th 15th Oct 1954?

Nobody knows what happened on 15th Oct 1954 and if you do, you are a freak! So all of us start making up answers...and pass it on to the umpire. Umpire reads it out including the REAL answer and we are suppose to guess the real one! So, if another person thinks yours sonuds real....then you get a point! and if you picked the correct answer...you get 3 points! and hence move 3 steps on the board!
Blur? hahahahaha

Deon as the umpire who tried to put on a straight face while reading our answers.

Kris & the gf. Hilarious. What happened on 26th Nov 1945?

Kris & gf wrote: humpty dumpty fell of the wall.

more hilarious: brilliant Darling and I picked it as the answer.

Seong, the super crapper who tricked us so many times.

What does 'bladder pipe' means to you?

Seong: A rare Scottich musical instrument

More hilarious: Darling and I picked it again

Darn. Seong was laughing gleefully away.

What happened on the 3rd of March 1923?

Darling & I : Sir Jordan Knight found a fragment of Pleoptausaurus on the island of Makuki, Tasmania (something like that, of course i cant remember the name!)

:) well, we ve got one vote for it! ahahahahahhahaha

exquisite night.

Some funny answers by Jing and Kris:

What does PCAA stand for?
Pigs Can be Adults Again

What does JBDC stand for?
Jane Blows Dick for Cash

Seriously. Darling and I thought that was the correct answer. :)

elated

2007-03-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

glad that my presentation went well!! so happy that people could understand me!!! not to boast about it....but it feels good to be doing something useful once in SBS! ;)

Pathetic

2007-03-26T20:37:00.000+08:00

It's pathetic how I can't get a proper internship in the field I want. No answers from the 4 I have sent out just yet. Morale plunges lowly as for now.

Sigh.

Happy 23rd Birthday to my Darling!

2007-03-25T13:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday darling!!! Got my darling an Eragorn book collection, though I don't think he is too enthralled by it....HAAHAHAHHA but I surely do hope he enjoyed his birthday as much as I did! We went to Settler's the night before with Mich, Deon, Seong, Jing, Kris and Ee Ting and it was good! Pics will be up soon for that one, but really I think I want to open Settler's in Penang!
Brewing on the idea still.....

Anyway, here are the pics!

Right at the beginning of the day while waiting for bus to go to JP. Watched TMNT and then went to Brewerkz!!!!!! Why oh why I haven't discovered this heavenly place before! Appreciation goes to Jason who recommended the blasting place! Basically, Brewerkz is a restaurant where the beers are brewed over there and gosh! Before Brewerkz, my vocabulary of beers are limited to Tiger, Carlsberg, Heineken and Hoegarden and I don't quite like it as it is bitter but after Brewerkz.... man.... my whole perception changed!!!!!! My vocab of beers have expanded to Golden ALe, Indai Pale Ale, Steam Beer, Wheat beer, Pilsner...oh my GAWD!

AtBrewerkz Microbrewery. That's the Golden Ale and Hoegarden (it doesnt taste at all like the ones from 7 eleven!)

See the blue lamp-post-look-alike thingy on the table?? That's a TOWER. Yes, a TOWER of stout where they have 4000ml in it. nuts. Even the food in Brwerkz has beer! *slurpz* and yes, the food is great there in Brwerkz

The scenery from Brewerkz right next to the river. The other side of the river is where all the clubs are situated.... directly next to Brewerkz was Iguana's where they serve the BEST maragritas and on the other side of Brewerkz, is Wine Garage! Tell me, aint it heavenly??? *dreamy eyes*

Darling and I. still pretty sober.

Darling and Aman the Northern Indian who has never EVER cut his hair before and who has a sister whose wedding lasted for a week in India!

Darling and I in Clarke Quay after the not-too-sober beer drinking.

Darling at the edge of flying high

Headed to Iguana's for the jug of Horny Toad margaritas.

Realised that Aman is not so sober after all

This is us after commenting loudly to the bartenders of Iguana that they were way too serious. And yes, we were sitting at the bar.

Wasted birthday boy.

Awesome answers

2007-03-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

Our lab technician sent us these.... and I nearly cracked myself over it!!!!!!! And yeah, these are exam answers!

You'd have to admit that some of them have awesome drawings!

Totally different way of seeing it!

he tried at least.... HAHAHHHAhAh

i thought this was the ultimate...until i saw THIS:

Hands down. Best answer. EVER. :)

PINCH!

2007-03-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

I can't take it anymore!!!! My cousin's lil french baby is sooooooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!! *pinches him* I want to hug him!!!!!!!

Initially, my cousin was pissed that dear lil clement got the chinese looks instead of the french looks.....but still extremely cute nevertheless!

check out his newborn small eyed pic

and how his eyes have OPENED in 2 and a half months later!!!!

*chew chew*

still trying to chew 2 and a half months later

OOOOOOOOooooooooo

I wonder will he ever know that there is this Malaysian auntie going gaga over his smile and cheeks!

All the more reason for me to go to France!!! *wink*

Meeting Dad

2007-02-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I last talked to a parent and felt that I am being heard. Thank you, Dad. I guess one of the reasons that I will always go back to my Dad no matter how many times he chose to abandon me is because that I have always enjoyed my Dad's company. And deep down, I miss my Dad's presence so much. The feeling has been buried there, unknown and unrealised for such a long time already, that it took me centuries to notice it. My dear heart aches and longs to tell my Dad and Mom how much I miss those times when everything doesn't matter much, when even complicated things appear simple and sweet. How much I miss seeing the 2 of them together. How much I miss those times when it was only 3 of us. Things that sound so simple to accomplish but yet I know will never happen.

Maybe if Dad had found himself a partner, it wouldn't have been so hard for me. Seeing him alone, at the age of 59, with no money and still riding a bike to work, is simply killing for me.

I miss talking to him so. To tell him what I have accomplished in life so far. To see him nod and give me the proud smile. To cry on his shoulder and tell him I miss him so. And that I am sorry for not being there for him.

It has been 13 years since the seperation but I guess there are just certain things that you can't possibly get over it. And it doesn't help that I am such an emotional pig.

Next time, if you do want to get a divorce, only do it when your kids are either TOO YOUNG to know what's happening or TOO OLD to be bothered by it. Kids at the age range of 9 to 15 (I think) just can't handle it as well, I suppose. It IS traumatising no matter how common divorce is nowadays.

And if you are a kid stuck between divorced parents, shut both your ears and do as your heart wishes. It is the only place where the answer to what you REALLY want lies.

Family Matters

2007-02-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

Found my dad. Going to meet up with him real soon. Don't know what to expect other than wish that I am working now so I could support my parents. Heart fell to my knees when I heard that my dad is in Jubilee Home for the Aged. THANK GOD, he is only working there, not staying there permanently or else I don't think I will ever get past the awful ache that dwelled in my heart upon hearing his whereabouts.

We have ONE and only one person whom you can truly call as a father. This is one principle that I have been holding on to, one principle that prompted me to look for my dad again though I know deep down that my existence to him is not of utmost importance.

It is sad but I guess I have learnt to accept it throughout these years. what else could I do then? *smile*

and we........

2007-02-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

WON the competition!

Losing the world

2007-02-07T18:54:00.000+08:00

In China and Japan, this is the hottest winter in their 167 years where ice skating is not even permitted and ice carving competition in Japan was having difficulties due to the constant melting of ice.

In States and Canada, winter hits its coldest with -35 degrees in some states and where your skin, if exposed for 10 minutes, gets frostbitten. Schools have closed down due to the weather.

In Indonesia, Jakarta's flood is getting out of control with UN sending financial aids and food to the victims.

And Bush still wants to ask for USd 147 billion for warfare!

Interesting facts

2007-02-06T18:28:00.000+08:00

Mom's got a Fortune Plant lately from my uncle and what does a Fortune Plant usually do? Bring fortune of course (I don't quite buy these things you see)!!!!!!!!!

This one here sprouts out from the egg (see the sand around it) and you get a stalk with some leaves AND a lottery number on it!

Though I strongly believe that plants sprout from seeds and not eggs.

Second interesting fact is that, I dont have to spend SGD 3.50 on one bowl of soup anymore! I BOIL soup myself now! Interesting right? *laughs*

My chicken soup! I have recently boiled watercress too! But really, it wasnt much of a success to boast =P

Inter hall dance

2007-02-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

Now, THIS includes me! :) Due to the number of times I have to dance in a week (that's a lot of times with the minimum of 4).... I have succumbed to my usual injuries again *sob*

Come, say it with me...

OUCH!

But all in all, I think we look pretty awesome in this...

And the competition is on the 13th Feb! We simply HAVE to win this thing!*faint*

Inter hall cheerleading

2007-02-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

Here are the few mascots that I think are pretty cute:

chun li Mr. cupid Ninja turtles

and my fave mascot!

Spongebob! check out the skinny legs!

These are the pics of the various cheerleaders.....

Missed those times when I was one too! *smiles*

Blank

2007-01-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

I am unhappy at this moment. And I don't know what to do..nor do i feel sleepy enough to sleep...nor do I want to talk to anyone right now. I somehow don't feel very happy for these past few days and no, it is not that time of the month.

In the process of striving to make everyone happy, I make the people around me becoming distant.

There are so many things I want to say but ... I can't bring myself to it. There are times that I think I need help but at the same time, I think I will be fine.

I just need some time off.

That's all.

A sore heart

2007-01-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

Sometimes there is this sore inside you that .. that ... it's so hard for you to put the soreness into words....to express how sad the feeling is, you know?

Just talked to Mom ... things aren't going very well at home ... but the numerous times I have thanked God for being me... you have no idea... *smiles*

I thank God for the positive outlook I have in life even when things are down
I thank God for the belief that I put in every problem, that there is always a solution to it
I thank God for the strong faith that was bequeathed upon me, the faith that has brought me a long way
I thank God for the short memory that I have for I tend to forgive and forget easily
I thank God for empowering me with the strength that I have within, to overcome the trials and tribulations that I have encountered
I thank God for all the twists of fate, for every fate, I believe, happens for a reason and it is always for the better
I thank God for preserving the capabilities in me to go on courageously

Here is something to share, something that I hold on to:

The earth is empty.
The trees once thick with blossom stand dead against the bitter sky.
The streams are frozen.
The heart has lost all hope.
But see-along the branches
new buds appear and greeness pushes through the ground unnoticed
Spring may be slow-
but will at last return

-by A Gift of Hope given to me by my Darling

Lish dear, Ian will be fine and do have faith in that little boy. My heart goes out to him but he is one hell of a fighter, remember that!

Darling Attempting to Fly a Kite

2007-01-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

When we were back in Penang, Darling and I brought mommy and lil nephew out for dinner and a walk around the ever popular Gurney Drive.

We walked around after dinner and saw one of the stalls selling the super cute tiny kite and I was definitely tempted to buy it for my lil nephew to play with!

Darling: Let the man do the tough part. (his hand reaching for the kite)

A few minutes later.....

Darling was frantically pulling and tugging at the tiny kite

Sigh...The kite just wouldn't listen to the man

ARGH.....the man shall NOT give up!

A good 15 minutes later.....

SIGH.

Poor lil nephew was so desperate he nearly resorted to fly the kite while riding behind my Darling's car. *shakes head*

New Year Resolutions

2007-01-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

I don't actually think this is the full list because I am one forgetful person and you know how things just flickered through your mind and then you siad "Yes, I 'll do it" but you just plain forget after that? Anyway, here are the few that I could come up with at the moment.

1. To spill my guts and go after the things I really want in life.
I have been really quite sick of myself for not doing the things I've always wanted to do, giving nonsensical reasons. I realised that reasons and excuses will always be there but it is down here in your heart, on whether you want to acknowledge its presence.

2. To socialise more
I know, I know. You will be saying " What is this girl trying to say?Is she mocking me?". I have always appeared to be a social butterfly (which I think I am not) but I do agree that I need people around me. People that can be called friends. And I do think my social circle here is very small and sometimes I do feel.... suffocated... like you know, I am in the middle of the circle of friends and the circle is really small... hahahahah..no, I am not joking.

3. To be nicer to the people around me
It's no point making friends and not keeping them. Then you shouldn't make friends at all to begin with. I wish to not participate in any bitching but I do realise there is a fine line between giving opinions and bitching, darn. Oh, I would also like to be warmer towards strangers, say, the cleaners, the food sellers etc.

4. To work hard and not slack........too much...ehehheeh
I tend to slack at times and when I slack... gosh I am like a pro in it. Procrastinating every single little thing!

5. To take care of my family more
I do feel like I am the "son" of the family at times :) and I would want to meet my dad again. No matter how angry I was towards him, sins can be forgiven, wounds can be healed. It leaves scars of course but a dad's always a dad. I do not want to regret for certain things I didn't do now later in life. Yeah, I do miss him.

6. To exercise more for health reasons
I have been getting aches recently and I believe I need a healthy heart. Everyone needs a healthy heart, what am I talking?

7. To join an outreach programme
I talked to a friend recently who ignited and reminded my passion towards helping others and I wonder why I havent been doing it all this while. I wanted to join the Red Cross here but just because they might take up my holiday time as well, I didn't bother to question further. ARGH. But he just gave me a number, someone whom I can ring up if I want to join a programme as such. I want to do it but at the same time, I think what's holding me back is the time that is needed. We'll see.

8. To save money
This is something challenging to me. :) I need to freaking save! Darling and I moving out from hostel soon! Please please please let us find a studio apartment........that is cheap, nice AND furnished! wakakakak

9. To learn cooking
It's not that I don't want to cook but cooking in hostel IS really a hassle. For one, the kitchen is damn far from my room. And sometimes you get people pouring noodles or what nonsense all over the place. I promise I will do better in our own house k hon?

ok. Thats all for now!

2007-01-05T13:19:00.000+08:00

Pictures according to the row from left to right:

1. My bro in law with my second cheeky niece in a nice cosy cafe eating tonnes of wan than mee in Yau Ma Tei

2. We spent 1000 dollars on lunch in the posh restaurant in Victoria's Peak. Darn expensive but nice.

3. EA games simulator in Victoria's Peak.

4. The famous Disney train!

5. Tai Yu Shan aka Lantau Island viewing the World's Largest Seated Buddha

6. Upclose.

7. Tai-O, a homely fishing village where you can just buy the fishes from the fishermen and bring the live fish into a restaurant.

8. "Ham Yu" or famous salty fishes

9. Fishermen's Wharf in Macau. Beautiful achitecture, a mix of Portugese and Chinese

10. The popular Sands Casino, by Las Vegas, one of the 28 casinos in Macau.

11. The coliseum look alike

12. Fishermen's Wharf still.

13. Avenue of Stars

HAhahah i know this is a lousy update of HK trip but I dont have the pics with me now. Just these few sad ones :)

And my beloved nieces and nephew with their favourite foot..... they insisted on taking individual pics with Mr.Foot Reflexology *smiles*

26th of December 2006

2007-01-05T12:13:00.000+08:00

Particularly a memorable day. A day lof little births :) This mother Minnie here (the name's sounds corny but was given by my niece and nephew..poor things...) gave birth to 4 little babies!

One of the tiny little adorable hairless pinkish baby

upclose picture of the tiny little adorable hairless pinkish baby

a week later....tiny little adorable hairless pinkish babies with blackheads

And the not so little, cute baby delivered by mother Miko (see that clump of black hair next to her?). Born on the same day too!

Cheers to the little ones!

Twists of Fate

2006-12-19T18:50:00.000+08:00

I've had enough. Smiles. Enough of bad luck for this year!!! And the funny thing is, it is not entirely bad luck, you see.

1. My darling and I got back from Singapore to Penang and we sort of crashed head on into somebody's car. (Not entirely bad luck because: We both escaped unhurt though our car was moving freaking fast)

2. Came back to Penang again and had food poisoning and was admittted to hospital. To top that up, I had to go to 2 hospitals before they had the ONLY bed for me with 7 other wheezing grandmothers. (Not entirely bad luck because: I found a bed to pass the night :P)

3. Came back Penang the third time AND got poisioned again. (Not entirely bad luck because: I wasn't admitted to hospital this time thanks to my nursing darling but had a sore shot right at the butt *pouts*)

4. I lost 100 over bucks to slot machines in casino the FIRST time I went in (Not entirely bad luck because: I cannot find a reason to this... I didn't lose more than that maybe?? )

5. On my way back to Penang recently when I met with an accident and I mean.... a roller coaster and bumper car ride, that sort of thing. And that's at freaking 2 am in the morning. 70 km away from Penang and in the middle of a dark highway. (Not entirely bad luck because: I am still in one piece with no bruises or whatsover... just a bit shaken)

6. This one in happened in Singapore. My hostel room was broken into and my poor handphone and wallet got stolen along with my ID, driving license and such. And the stupid thief had to do this to me in the midst of my finals. (Not entirely bad luck because: My laptop was left untouched. And I got new fantastic phone and a red hot wallet. *prances around*)

7. This one just happened today. I took the only car (huge noisy exhaust and non-see through, black windows) that's left at home to go to the hair salon to dye my hair in the afternoon and got freaking stopped by policemen right after I made a turn. And had to be right after I dyed my hair (cos I think I look look more punk in it and the policemen here love it when u look punk). AND all my brother in law's friends have been driving that catch-me-if-u-can-car at night to clubs and discos and NOBODY stopped them :(. (Not entirely bad luck because: For some funny reasons, the 2 policemen let me off without a scratch. HAHAHHAHA! They talked to me and realised that I was telling the truth after all about it being not my car. *wriggels eyebrows*)

Okay. That's IT for this year. No more. Today's the LAST one!!!!!!!!!!!!

DANCE!

2006-12-07T10:58:00.000+08:00

Mit and I have talked and yes, I will be doing the choreography with him. I am going to put my heart and soul inside this, I WILL. And it will NOT lose out to the others. :) It feels so good to have a vision again.

A Day Out

2006-12-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

In front of VivoCity

Yes, I went to VivoCity again. Can't help it! I like that place! They have everything! They have above average clothes like Guess, MNG, Zara and down to the casual affordable clothes like Fox, Giordano, Baleno..... which is really normal stuff, found all over Singapore but what makes it special is ....

the beautiful scenery outside Vivo..That's Sentosa by the way

On the roof top of Vivo

And the pet shop! Yes! Pet shop in Vivo! This chow chow is only 5 months old.... with microchip implanted so would not get lost.

This is the Japanese something something... adorable little one

And the lazy little bum ... hahahah

It is also so much nearer than Orchard for jungle people like me from Boon Lay! *smiles*

Post Exam

2006-12-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

Nothing much, except that I have gotten myself a new phone! Due to circumstances on which I shall not elaborate. Presenting my new phone, Sony Ericsson W810i and I am so in love with it! It is the kind of phone which you have got to lay your eyes on itlong enough to say it is truly nice! Viv commented that it looks like a Mickey Mouse *gruffs* and the rest just nodded their heads when I jumped around pointing the phone to them. HMPH! But I love it! Great camera and it has a blasting good mp3 player too! So nice!

And I have been terribly sick too :( and have been postponing my visit to VivoCity to watch Open Season and I guess I have missed Step Up. ARGH! But I want to pay my deepest gratitude to my doctor cum nurse cum babysitter cum boyfriend during my sick nights...

Amazing man, this one.

Adelie penguins

2006-11-25T11:10:00.000+08:00

I forgot these! The Adelie penguins! I love them because they just simply love to have fun and party and they are so darn cute! They are only about 70cm... 2 long rulers put together..hahaha and and they peck you like mad and try to hang on to you when they thought you are attacking them! heheheh use pebbles to make their nest and they lay poo all over the place... and they sing really well! =)

Poor Adelie chick...Bad hair day and strongly suspected he fell into the mud (don't know why they have mud but yeah they do).. hahahahahaha

" Do I look like an owl now???!"

Mambo Happy Feet

2006-11-25T10:41:00.000+08:00

Little did I know watching a movie of penguins last night would thought me so many things in life! I thought it was just penguin-singing and this little tap dancer would have somehow attracted a female penguin though he tap dances. But it turned out to be so much more meaningful than that! That Mambo boy bought across the message of daring to be different and of all the things you do, having faith in yourself, is the top-most of your list of "most precious gifts in life". Having inspired by a little penguin (yes, I know but I get insprired at the weirdest things on earth), I wanted to know more about Antarctica ( always have been very intrigued by all these places; Artic, Antarctica, Galapagos, papua new guiney...) and their extremely hard-core way of living. And WOW. That's all I can say.

These are the Emperor penguins, featured in the movie. Stately and elegant (hence, the name), they are the tallest penguins around! 1.15m! That's more than half of me! nearly three quarters! Oh oh, that's the little kid! Chubby eh? I feel like pinching it! They can walk up to 280 km with their non-existent knees while we are... Us humans are urgh *shameful* ...

Ah! The march of the penguins! Look at that! They are heading south towards their breeding ground! Coldest of all times when all the other penguins head north! After mating, they brave the temperature of -20 to -50 degrees and the wind of 200 kmph! And that's the male penguins too you know, not the females. Females get to go into the sea to catch fishes while the males kept the babies between their legs and not eat for 3 months! hehehehehe sounds good eh? Male humans should take a leaf out of the penguin books. heheheheheheh

Awwww.... that little penguin trying to keep warm between papa's feet....

And there they are! The males waiting loyally for the return of the females (get the hint? hehehe) witht their offsprings... and these penguins can swim damn fast! Outswim the seals all the time unless that they are sick and weak.

I want to go Antarctica! I want to work with saving animals!!!

dreamy me

2006-11-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

a gush of midnight dew smell, a lil' sprinkle of stardust with the softest sea breeze blowing, a dash of salty air flooded by the dancing moonlight......

that's how i feel right now. mmmmm.......

drained

2006-11-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

what I feel right at this second:

1. my poor brain is flooded with information that it doesn't really remember and understand (you poor thing aawww)

2. i want to eat laksa and tonnes and TONNES of crabs

3. want to just DRIVE endlessly and i mean drive and not WALK

4. want to feast my eyes at the calm blue sea and listen to the crashing waves at the shore (thats when my mind is totally zonked)

5. would like to sit at Gurney Drive and just stare at the people walking by and at the dirty sea (zonked too, this one)

6. would like to sip my magharitas while smiling stupidly into the space (wondrous feeling, i tell you)

7. would like to down chivas and white wine while also smiling stupidly into the space

8. also want to just club, club and club (only on ladies' night heheheh)

9. and also to dance my heart out *prances around*

aaaaahhhh..........................

2006-11-18T20:10:00.000+08:00

"Most Malaysians are convinced that the eyes of the world are on their country and that their leaders are world figures. This is thanks to Malaysia's tame media and the bravado of former prime minister Mahathir Mohamad. The truth is, few people on the streets of London or New York could point to Malaysia on a map much less name its prime minister or capital city."

"It is time to move on, time to prepare the economy for life after oil. But, like Nero fiddling while Rome burned, the Malaysian Government is more interested in stunts like sending a Malaysian into space when Malaysia's inadequate schools could have done with the cash, and arguing about wealth distribution using transparently ridiculous statistics."

qouted from "While Malaysia fiddles, its opportunities are running dry" Michael BackmanNovember 15, 2006 - Australia

How sad can it go? I always said that Malaysian government has been very successful in achieving the objectives of the education system: to instill the sense of pride in us. But there is always this knawing feeling inside me, this little voice that tells me that, success is not everyone's, victory is only on the government's side and that we have blatantly been blinded by it all these years. So blinded that sometimes we are so used to it that we don't even know that it is NOT normal! I don't know about others but the countless times I have replied, " What to do, it is an Islamic country." or " Aiiyyyaahh, they are always like this." ; it is just too many a time! I realised that we are taught to respect or in other words, keep our mouths shut up tight! And the best part is, we have been doing it all this while without us knowing it ourselves!Gosh! We never question why they never respect OUR RIGHTS, why Chinese are always and I mean ALWAYS marginalised, why the Chinese can never progress in the government sector....

And to a lot of people from all over the world, they always wonder why the Chinese in Malaysia never say anything about it ..... Bangsa bersatu?

indulgences

2006-11-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

I do think it is true when they say that grads and undergrads are splurging their money. I thought it was only me! It's so comforting that almost all of us are erm... spending so much! I thought I was plain terrible and wasting money with no financial management whatsoever. PHEW! We love indulging in (at least me)....

Nice food *slurpz*

sometimes we combine exquisite taste with luxurious settings....

and of course with exquisite taste comes expensive looks

but you don't wear these all the time! you need laidback clothes as well

and sometimes you got tired of it all and just want to relax....

and see the world maybe?

I don't think I can survive with my salary next time! And I haven't even mentioned the whole tonnes of things I want to buy for myself! *sob*

.....

2006-11-17T00:57:00.001+08:00

I have spent the entire night trying to figure out a new blogskin and I gave up. That's it! I am going to study my heart out morrow! *ROAR*

new layout!

2006-11-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

There! This is the best that I can do at this moment! Just finished my superb paper neurobiology!!! And I have 5 more papers to go! and here I am, lazing around for the whole day already! DARN... I am such a sloth...

Shen Ting & Lish

2006-11-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

HHAHAHAHAH this is specially for Shen Ting and Li Shih.... Guess what I got to know recently?

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Tho Milin and her scottish boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heheheheheh shocked??? I was. She sent this pic to me while I was chatting with her. =) and this is NOT her first one!!! Want to smack her right? hahahaha