Growing

After like.... wha?? how many months has it been since I last wrote?? *smiles* And tonnes of things had happened to me since then! Let's see:

• started my work with eFusion, quit and started my work with International Relations Office
• Darling promised me to Redang or Tioman and he still owes me!
• started my final year in NTU
• moved out from hostel and now staying in a cosy unit near NTU
• met a few pretty important people
• joined business plan competition and wow, got into semi finals now
• wants to win bpc so that my grad trip will be free!! muahahahahahah

My condolences extended to Nurin's family... and to the other families who have lost or nearly lost their loved ones... I truly wish something else could have been done to prevent those horrific actions by those sick people of whom I wonder, what had happened to them before to ignite such terrible acts. In some ways, I think somewhere along their bringing up, somewhere must have gone very wrong.

crossroads

It is at the crossroads in lives that you begin to wonder about the paths that you have taken and the roads that were abandoned. It is at this moment, when I was trotting confidently along, that I suddenly stopped short and looked up, only to realise that the front looks scary actually. That I haven't seen it coming all along. That there aren't flowers blooming ahead. At least, not within my sight.

And the worst part is that when you turn frantically around trying to find the "Help" sign, only AGAIN to realise that there isn't one right now. You feel LONELY.And when the night comes, when the darkness swallows you deep within, you realise the only thing you can do is to wrap yourself with the bare arms and stare up into the sparkly sky, hoping for the best.

And when dawn breaks, there you are, crouching next to a tree, smilling into the new beginning, ready to brave the new day again.

hey hey HEY!

Leadership Quiz - Your Results

Your results indicate that your leadership style is both: Participative and Delegative

Participative Leadership

Participative leaders accept input from one or more group members when making decisions and solving problems, but the leader retains the final say when choices are made. Group members tend to be encouraged and motivated by this style of leadership. This style of leadership often leads to more effective and accurate decisions, since no leader can be an expert in all areas. Input from group members with specialized knowledge and expertise creates a more complete basis for decision-making.

Delegative Leadership

Delegative leaders allow group members to make decisions. This style is best used in situations where the leader needs to rely on qualified employees. The leader cannot be an expert in all situations, which is why it is important to delegate certain tasks out to knowledgeable and trustworthy employees.Remember, good leaders utilize all three styles depending upon the situation.

For example:
Use an authoritative style if a group member lacks knowledge about a certain procedure.
Use a participative style with group members who understand the objectives and their role in the task.
Use a delegative style if the group member knows more than you do about the task.

This is what happens when I am too bored. URGH.

http://psychology.about.com/library/quiz/bl-leadershipquizbc.htm

"Mohamad Rosle Ahmad wrote in a letter to the editor: "I am sure Enron and Worldcom paid more than top dollar for their top executives, and look where their companies are now - six feet under."
Lee Kuan Yew, whose title is minister mentor, said naysayers like this need a reality check.
"I say you have no sense of proportion; you don't know what life is about," he said last month."

NOW we know why the increase the sales tax. The famous words of Lord Acton reminds us that "absolute power corrupts absolutely".


On a different note, I think I will die during the holidays. Work during daytime, dance my soul out night time. Practices are on every Mon, Wed, Thurs and Fri. Sat is still unknown and probably used to choreograph moves. Goner.
Boy, do I need a long holiday this time. No more studying. God knows I was still overwhelmed by last semester. 6 biology subjects and that's not inclusive of our 3-hour lab time every week! What the freak? And only a month break before this semester (4 bio and 1 business) started and yes, it felt way too short. I don't know what my school wants seriously, you know you have studied more than enough when Master exchange students are sitting in the same lecture hall with me and our undergraduate students in other countries have nothing to take but Master's subjects. I am becoming nerdier by the second.

Someday

You know what I'd really like to do someday?

1. Visit North Pole


The rare phenomenon of the beautiful sun and moon together. ( Come to think of it, I don't know if this is even possible)


2. Visit South Pole


and see penguins in the wild!

3. Climb Mt.Kinabalu


Can you picture the satisfaction and victorious feeling upon scaling it????


4. Feast my eyes on Mt.Everest and Mt.Fuji


Feast, not climb. I think the Himalayas of Nepal is really beautiful.

5. See the whales

6. Galapagos Islands! I forgot this one!

I have always been very fascinated by evolution and this is the very land that keeps all the evidences and mysteries! To this very day!

7. Prince Edward Island

I love Anne of Green Gables collection (credit goes to my Darling who found the entire collection for me!)and really L.M Montmogery was so amazing! This book has thought me loads of things since childhood days ,especially one that I held onto very strongly - hope. And she had painted such a beautiful picture of PEI, of dreams and hopes! There is even a place where they built the Anne of Green Gables house for tourism. But then again, maybe visiting it might not be such a good idea after all. It would be like, being awakened from a beautiful, sweet dream, don't you think so?

Yes, I am not such a city girl. Don't really like the concrete buildings. Feel suffocated at times, don't you think so? The serene beauty of the nature can never be represented by those tall, concrete blocks. And it's sad, how we often tend to forget to pause for a few minutes, to just turn to the tree next to us and think, I wonder how old you are now?

Fumbling

okay okay I know this is not the best time to be thinking of what I want to do next time but I can't help it!!!!! I have been pondering and I can't help but to think that I can't just settle for a 9-5 job of an SGD of 2500 a month (and that's IF I get a proper job)!!!! I am such a spender! How am I suppose to support my dad and mom AND pay my study loan AND the bills, the rental, the good food that I love and the nice clothes that I can only drool for????!!!! Not to mention the travelling around the world that I'd like to do. Not to mention saving up a bit for studying AND for rainy days. Oh, I forgot to mention a car. *faint* And most likely a dog too while we are at it.

Since Exploit Tech came down, I have been thinking about becoming an IP agent. Reasons being:

1. It has everything to do with what I am studying
2. Science and technology is moving so fast and everyone needs their products or ideas to be patented
3. It involves one to predict whether the product will be able to make it or not in the industry ( I think I would like that)
4. It is professional. LOL.
5. OK, this sounds invalid but I can't help it that every numerological, horoscope and zodiac predictions ALWAYS and I mean always say that I should be involved in business, sales and law. Maybe this is good? its a combi of business and law anyway.
6. I like consultancy and advising as well.


Reasons NOT becoming one:

1. The manager I met told me that you have to know your stuff really well because you get shitty professors coming up to you saying, "Do you have a PHD?" before you even start advising. And worse response if you tell them your product is not going to be able to make it outside there.
2. Becoming an IP agent means doing an extra year in IP academy to be a registered IP agent. Now, I think I should also say that studying law doesnt exactly excite me.
3. I am not a very methodological person (as there are many procedures to obtain a license).


6 to 3??? hhhmm....... or heck, maybe I should just start a business. :P

ashe and ashlee

Should have uploaded this but i forgot! yes!the 2 of them were in my university giving classes! :)

Walt Disney

He was an admirable man. One who was called the father of animation. One who had such vivd dreams and imagination that only words such as; impressive, inventor, genius: can be associated with him. I owe it to him to believe and hope. I owe it to him to remember that good and beautiful things do happen after all. I owe it to him for learning my English when I was young. How absurd of me to be sitting in front of the TV at every 5.30 in the evening to watch cartoons before or after playing outside. And it is even more absurd that a fully grown woman of 22 will answer to her nieces and nephew like that:-



Nieces and nephew: YiYi (auntie)!!!!!
(they will be in the living room and me in the room)


22-year-old: Yes??


Nieces and nephew: Spongebob Squarepants is on now!! Come out!!!!!!!!


22-year-old: OKAY!
(races to the living room)






Yes, I still love to watch cartoons to this day. And nothing could change that. I love the idea of hope and belief it brought to me. I love the idea of simplicity holding the beauty. I love the idea of how immature and childish it may seem, but yet has a deeper meaning to it. I love the idea that a simple 2-D animated cartoon is able to contain such a message and still make us laugh our heads off.




It never really hit me the immense work and art of Walt Disney until I went to Tokyo Disneyland. He did it. Everything over there is so magical, so true. I saw all the Japanese kids over there, wide-eyed, listening to every word that Mickey said, and was thinking how lucky these kids are. I was amazed, not just by the beautiful buildings but simply the feeling of me being inside Disneyland. I was the happiest of all the happy girls that day. It is the only feeling where one can ONLY feel it in Disneyland. I felt like I was brought back to my kiddy days. Like, everything could really come true if you believe in it. And, it will, you know.

Thank you, Mr.Disney, for not only building the most famous theme park in the world, but also proving to us that, really, we should keep on believing and hoping, holding on to our dreams and knowing that it will come some day.






Oh, just to note, Hong Kong Disneyland, is not that great.

High School Never Ends

I love these awesome lyrics! :P

Four years you think for sure
That’s all you've got to endure
All the total dicks
All the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature
Then when you graduate
You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT!
This is the same as where I just came from
I thought it was over
Aw that’s just great

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex
Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High school never ends

Check out the popular kids
You’ll never guess what Jessica did
How did Mary Kate lose all that weight
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom’s straight
And the only thing that matters
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn’t matter if you’re sixteen or thirty-five
Reese Witherspoon,She’s the prom queen
Bill Gates,Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback
Seen it all before I want my money back!!

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who’s the best dressed and who’s having sex
Who’s in the club and who’s on the drugs
Who’s throwing up before they digest
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
And you still listen to the same shit you did back then

High school never ends
High school never ends

Women abuse

The women over at New Delhi,

- sexually abuse by husband (sometimes in fron of children) and more of them being exploited into sex tourism
- after tsunami, women sold off their KIDNEYS to make ends meet.
- with the amount they have, hopefully to help the family, was taken by the husband to drink
- after selling their kidneys, no proper follow up medication was given, leading to severe abdominal pains preventing them from work.

Why women are always the subject for abuse????? GROSS.

Places like Japan ( I know its the culture and I should respect them) but the super blown up ego of the men over there.... i tell you....feels like smacking their heads! I will never work for a Jap company!

What's wrong with them? At the end of the day, down right to the core, it's just the difference of you having a Y gene and me having a double X. If we respect you men, why cant's we get the same amount of respect back? HAH.

And there have been reports that Y gene is degenerating. Unstable telomeric ends. Facing extinction maybe???

Which goes back to proving my theory. That we were hemaphrodites (self-fertilised: have both sperms and eggs) to begin with and there was no male back then! *laughs gleefully*


Note: something is wrong with my blog. damn. all the writtings for previous post was gone!

Darling's Pre-birthday

22nd March 2007! The usual people went out and celebrated darling's birthday and it was fun fun FUN! *smiles*
Went to XO bihun for a yummy dinner. Oh, and the group met Kris's gf for the first time!


I love the XO bihun! the group indulging in it...


The guys whom I met since my first day in NTU.... We no longer keep in touch that often anymore but still.... somehow pretty crazy when we got together. i guess some things just don't change after all... :) so nolstalgic to see the 4 of them again. (though for some funny reasons they refuse to take this pic at first:*rolls eyes* - GUYS)


That's darling the pre-birthday boy!

After XO bihun, *slurpz* we went on to Settlers'! and I love the place to pieces! Ok, this place rocks because...you can hang out and bond with your friends and no one gives a care how loud you laugh AND at the same time, you get to play games! Well, basically, this place serves all kinds of board games. They have 200 over variety of board games imported from all over the world...you can choose between the 'reflex games' (which are just mindless where you scream and shout but fun nevertheless) and the strategy games (where you use your brain). After a series of mindless games... screaming ourselves hoarse and laughing our heads off...we went on for more strategy-based games. oh, they have someone explaining all the games to you!


Balderdash!
The game goes like this.
You have an umpire that draws a card and asks questions from it... say..

umpire: what happens on th 15th Oct 1954?

Nobody knows what happened on 15th Oct 1954 and if you do, you are a freak! So all of us start making up answers...and pass it on to the umpire. Umpire reads it out including the REAL answer and we are suppose to guess the real one! So, if another person thinks yours sonuds real....then you get a point! and if you picked the correct answer...you get 3 points! and hence move 3 steps on the board!
Blur? hahahahaha

Deon as the umpire who tried to put on a straight face while reading our answers.

Kris & the gf. Hilarious. What happened on 26th Nov 1945?

Kris & gf wrote: humpty dumpty fell of the wall.

more hilarious: brilliant Darling and I picked it as the answer.

Seong, the super crapper who tricked us so many times.

What does 'bladder pipe' means to you?

Seong: A rare Scottich musical instrument

More hilarious: Darling and I picked it again

Darn. Seong was laughing gleefully away.

What happened on the 3rd of March 1923?

Darling & I : Sir Jordan Knight found a fragment of Pleoptausaurus on the island of Makuki, Tasmania (something like that, of course i cant remember the name!)

:) well, we ve got one vote for it! ahahahahahhahaha


exquisite night.

Some funny answers by Jing and Kris:




What does PCAA stand for?
Pigs Can be Adults Again

What does JBDC stand for?
Jane Blows Dick for Cash





Seriously. Darling and I thought that was the correct answer. :)

elated

glad that my presentation went well!! so happy that people could understand me!!! not to boast about it....but it feels good to be doing something useful once in SBS! ;)

Pathetic

It's pathetic how I can't get a proper internship in the field I want. No answers from the 4 I have sent out just yet. Morale plunges lowly as for now.

Sigh.

Happy 23rd Birthday to my Darling!

Happy Birthday darling!!! Got my darling an Eragorn book collection, though I don't think he is too enthralled by it....HAAHAHAHHA but I surely do hope he enjoyed his birthday as much as I did! We went to Settler's the night before with Mich, Deon, Seong, Jing, Kris and Ee Ting and it was good! Pics will be up soon for that one, but really I think I want to open Settler's in Penang!
Brewing on the idea still.....

Anyway, here are the pics!


Right at the beginning of the day while waiting for bus to go to JP. Watched TMNT and then went to Brewerkz!!!!!! Why oh why I haven't discovered this heavenly place before! Appreciation goes to Jason who recommended the blasting place! Basically, Brewerkz is a restaurant where the beers are brewed over there and gosh! Before Brewerkz, my vocabulary of beers are limited to Tiger, Carlsberg, Heineken and Hoegarden and I don't quite like it as it is bitter but after Brewerkz.... man.... my whole perception changed!!!!!! My vocab of beers have expanded to Golden ALe, Indai Pale Ale, Steam Beer, Wheat beer, Pilsner...oh my GAWD!


AtBrewerkz Microbrewery. That's the Golden Ale and Hoegarden (it doesnt taste at all like the ones from 7 eleven!)



See the blue lamp-post-look-alike thingy on the table?? That's a TOWER. Yes, a TOWER of stout where they have 4000ml in it. nuts. Even the food in Brwerkz has beer! *slurpz* and yes, the food is great there in Brwerkz

The scenery from Brewerkz right next to the river. The other side of the river is where all the clubs are situated.... directly next to Brewerkz was Iguana's where they serve the BEST maragritas and on the other side of Brewerkz, is Wine Garage! Tell me, aint it heavenly??? *dreamy eyes*

Darling and I. still pretty sober.


Darling and Aman the Northern Indian who has never EVER cut his hair before and who has a sister whose wedding lasted for a week in India!

Darling and I in Clarke Quay after the not-too-sober beer drinking.

Darling at the edge of flying high

Headed to Iguana's for the jug of Horny Toad margaritas.

Realised that Aman is not so sober after all


This is us after commenting loudly to the bartenders of Iguana that they were way too serious. And yes, we were sitting at the bar.

Wasted birthday boy.

Awesome answers

Our lab technician sent us these.... and I nearly cracked myself over it!!!!!!! And yeah, these are exam answers!

You'd have to admit that some of them have awesome drawings!

Totally different way of seeing it!

he tried at least.... HAHAHHHAhAh

i thought this was the ultimate...until i saw THIS:

Hands down. Best answer. EVER. :)

PINCH!

I can't take it anymore!!!! My cousin's lil french baby is sooooooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!! *pinches him* I want to hug him!!!!!!!

Initially, my cousin was pissed that dear lil clement got the chinese looks instead of the french looks.....but still extremely cute nevertheless!

check out his newborn small eyed pic

and how his eyes have OPENED in 2 and a half months later!!!!

*chew chew*

still trying to chew 2 and a half months later

OOOOOOOOooooooooo

I wonder will he ever know that there is this Malaysian auntie going gaga over his smile and cheeks!

All the more reason for me to go to France!!! *wink*

Meeting Dad

It's been a long time since I last talked to a parent and felt that I am being heard. Thank you, Dad. I guess one of the reasons that I will always go back to my Dad no matter how many times he chose to abandon me is because that I have always enjoyed my Dad's company. And deep down, I miss my Dad's presence so much. The feeling has been buried there, unknown and unrealised for such a long time already, that it took me centuries to notice it. My dear heart aches and longs to tell my Dad and Mom how much I miss those times when everything doesn't matter much, when even complicated things appear simple and sweet. How much I miss seeing the 2 of them together. How much I miss those times when it was only 3 of us. Things that sound so simple to accomplish but yet I know will never happen.

Maybe if Dad had found himself a partner, it wouldn't have been so hard for me. Seeing him alone, at the age of 59, with no money and still riding a bike to work, is simply killing for me.

I miss talking to him so. To tell him what I have accomplished in life so far. To see him nod and give me the proud smile. To cry on his shoulder and tell him I miss him so. And that I am sorry for not being there for him.

It has been 13 years since the seperation but I guess there are just certain things that you can't possibly get over it. And it doesn't help that I am such an emotional pig.

Next time, if you do want to get a divorce, only do it when your kids are either TOO YOUNG to know what's happening or TOO OLD to be bothered by it. Kids at the age range of 9 to 15 (I think) just can't handle it as well, I suppose. It IS traumatising no matter how common divorce is nowadays.

And if you are a kid stuck between divorced parents, shut both your ears and do as your heart wishes. It is the only place where the answer to what you REALLY want lies.

Family Matters

Found my dad. Going to meet up with him real soon. Don't know what to expect other than wish that I am working now so I could support my parents. Heart fell to my knees when I heard that my dad is in Jubilee Home for the Aged. THANK GOD, he is only working there, not staying there permanently or else I don't think I will ever get past the awful ache that dwelled in my heart upon hearing his whereabouts.

We have ONE and only one person whom you can truly call as a father. This is one principle that I have been holding on to, one principle that prompted me to look for my dad again though I know deep down that my existence to him is not of utmost importance.

It is sad but I guess I have learnt to accept it throughout these years. what else could I do then? *smile*

and we........

WON the competition!

Losing the world

In China and Japan, this is the hottest winter in their 167 years where ice skating is not even permitted and ice carving competition in Japan was having difficulties due to the constant melting of ice.

In States and Canada, winter hits its coldest with -35 degrees in some states and where your skin, if exposed for 10 minutes, gets frostbitten. Schools have closed down due to the weather.

In Indonesia, Jakarta's flood is getting out of control with UN sending financial aids and food to the victims.

And Bush still wants to ask for USd 147 billion for warfare!