Meeting Dad

It's been a long time since I last talked to a parent and felt that I am being heard. Thank you, Dad. I guess one of the reasons that I will always go back to my Dad no matter how many times he chose to abandon me is because that I have always enjoyed my Dad's company. And deep down, I miss my Dad's presence so much. The feeling has been buried there, unknown and unrealised for such a long time already, that it took me centuries to notice it. My dear heart aches and longs to tell my Dad and Mom how much I miss those times when everything doesn't matter much, when even complicated things appear simple and sweet. How much I miss seeing the 2 of them together. How much I miss those times when it was only 3 of us. Things that sound so simple to accomplish but yet I know will never happen.

Maybe if Dad had found himself a partner, it wouldn't have been so hard for me. Seeing him alone, at the age of 59, with no money and still riding a bike to work, is simply killing for me.

I miss talking to him so. To tell him what I have accomplished in life so far. To see him nod and give me the proud smile. To cry on his shoulder and tell him I miss him so. And that I am sorry for not being there for him.

It has been 13 years since the seperation but I guess there are just certain things that you can't possibly get over it. And it doesn't help that I am such an emotional pig.

Next time, if you do want to get a divorce, only do it when your kids are either TOO YOUNG to know what's happening or TOO OLD to be bothered by it. Kids at the age range of 9 to 15 (I think) just can't handle it as well, I suppose. It IS traumatising no matter how common divorce is nowadays.

And if you are a kid stuck between divorced parents, shut both your ears and do as your heart wishes. It is the only place where the answer to what you REALLY want lies.

Family Matters

Found my dad. Going to meet up with him real soon. Don't know what to expect other than wish that I am working now so I could support my parents. Heart fell to my knees when I heard that my dad is in Jubilee Home for the Aged. THANK GOD, he is only working there, not staying there permanently or else I don't think I will ever get past the awful ache that dwelled in my heart upon hearing his whereabouts.

We have ONE and only one person whom you can truly call as a father. This is one principle that I have been holding on to, one principle that prompted me to look for my dad again though I know deep down that my existence to him is not of utmost importance.

It is sad but I guess I have learnt to accept it throughout these years. what else could I do then? *smile*

and we........

WON the competition!

Losing the world

In China and Japan, this is the hottest winter in their 167 years where ice skating is not even permitted and ice carving competition in Japan was having difficulties due to the constant melting of ice.

In States and Canada, winter hits its coldest with -35 degrees in some states and where your skin, if exposed for 10 minutes, gets frostbitten. Schools have closed down due to the weather.

In Indonesia, Jakarta's flood is getting out of control with UN sending financial aids and food to the victims.

And Bush still wants to ask for USd 147 billion for warfare!

Interesting facts

Mom's got a Fortune Plant lately from my uncle and what does a Fortune Plant usually do? Bring fortune of course (I don't quite buy these things you see)!!!!!!!!!


This one here sprouts out from the egg (see the sand around it) and you get a stalk with some leaves AND a lottery number on it!



Though I strongly believe that plants sprout from seeds and not eggs.

Second interesting fact is that, I dont have to spend SGD 3.50 on one bowl of soup anymore! I BOIL soup myself now! Interesting right? *laughs*

My chicken soup! I have recently boiled watercress too! But really, it wasnt much of a success to boast =P

Inter hall dance

Now, THIS includes me! :) Due to the number of times I have to dance in a week (that's a lot of times with the minimum of 4).... I have succumbed to my usual injuries again *sob*

Come, say it with me...

OUCH!

But all in all, I think we look pretty awesome in this...



And the competition is on the 13th Feb! We simply HAVE to win this thing!*faint*

Inter hall cheerleading

Here are the few mascots that I think are pretty cute:


chun li Mr. cupid Ninja turtles


and my fave mascot!

Spongebob! check out the skinny legs!


These are the pics of the various cheerleaders.....

Missed those times when I was one too! *smiles*