Heartless

Ying Ying was the little girl who was killed my the mother's boyfriend mid this year in Penang. Chopped into pieces and such. You get the picture.

Well, people being INNOVATIVE, have came up with a documentary about it. Yes, on her being chopped into pieces.

Lucky for us, the Penangites DVD sellers refuse to sell it out of respect for the father. Though I am sure you can always get a copy of this in Batu Ferrighi.

I wonder what's so documentary about it.

And This Is Why

Darling making flu remedy for me during the exam period.

Darling cooking porridge for me during the exam period.

Darling waking up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for me for no particlar reason.

The delicious breakfast.

The 3 sleep companions that my Darling bought for me! I notice all of them have rather large mouths!

Actions speak louder than words. Not any guy would share household chores with me willingly. Not any guy would gladly do the mopping of the house for you lest your hands would hurt. Not any guy would walk automatically to the laundry area to help you hang your clothes when it's done washing without being asked to do so.

I am joyous regardless of being the poor country rats that both of us are.

Family Matters

Dear XXX,

I have just talked to my mother on the phone today and I believe by this, you know why am I writting this email? What she told me just now was again, I felt, another dissapointment and I do admit that I am terribly upset about it. I don't mean to sound offensive here but I believe that there are some things that I wish to convey to you about how I feel personally and I hope you will be able to understand me.

My mom has made a fair bit of choices and decisions in our family matters; and decisions are what decisions are meant to be, meaning that you can't always please everyone. But nevertheless, decisions MUST be made and my sisters and I have accepted those decisions with open minds. We reserve our highest respects for our mother and for who she is, the decisions she made and we chose to stand by her through thick and thin. We don't expect other outsiders to understand our family matters nor do we wish for them to do so but yes, we do expect our family members to respect us for who we are today; after all, that is the very basic meaning as a family. I personally do not feel that what we have been through should render us to receive less levels of respect from other people.

I guess you would have as much as guessed this by now, but the reason on why we never turned up during your tea ceremony was because my uncle wasn't invited. We have always accepted him as a part of our family so yes, it came as a shock to us then, after all the hype that my sisters and I had in going to your tea ceremony. And families make decisions as a family.

I also personally think that if my sisters and I have accepted the path that my mom has chosen to take, then I think it is good enough a reason for anyone to just accept it and be happy for us. I think you would understand my point of view right?

I am truly upset over the matter and of course dissapointed and feel the need to tell you what is bothering me. I have such love and respect for my mother and it angers me to see her being unjustly treated like that. I hope I have made myself clear then.

It is such a sad thing, for what was supposed to be a happy wedding event with a purpose of bringing the family together to celebrate for the joyous couple, have to turn out like this.

Note to Self

It's interesting how we continously discover about ourselves as we go on in our daily duties no? I have made another new one. I realised I am NOT efficient when I am idle. *laughs* Funny but it is indeed true! I can't remember the last time I was THIS free, with nothing much to look forward to everyday. I have always been so busy since my secondary school days that when it stops suddenly, I don't quite know how to go about it. I also realised I studied harder when I don't have time to spare in one sem where all work, dance and studies caught on! I am ROTTING! I no longer bother about the news, I heck the sweeping of floor, I don't even wash my toilet as I used to do every 2 days!

Have I mentioned how I don't look forward to searching for jobs? It brings your confidence level down, not to mention popping up everyday to check for any interesting mails and feeling all distressed again because none came in. I can't help it!

I need to be home.

Quiz Box

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Weird Dream

I dreamnt. That I was a MOTHER of a little boy of 2 or 3 years old. And that I neglected him. I would be napping, waking up only to find him in a puddle of his own urine, only to realise that he hadn't bathe since yesterday. Sometimes he would hid underneath the table, and I realised that I forgot to feed him. But yet, he was still all smiley telling me he was fine. GOSH. Was I afraid that I might neglect my child one day?

What Pushes You

I always wonder, what went through their minds at that point of time. To be so gutsy to take on that single journey to the realm that is unknown to everyone of us. To do it alone,knowing that you will never see your loved ones again.

I wonder what flashed across his eyes when he jumped. Was it regret? Did he realise that there is no more turning back when the feet is no longer on a solid platform?

My condolences to Mr. Ting.

Idealistic

I think I am idealistic. And for that, I think that it is only practical to accept that life might hold a lot of dissapointments for me; simply because, it is just NOT as ideal as it may seem.

Then again, don't YOU have an ideal view of something yourself? That people, no matter how evil they are, might just have a little good in them? That maybe we should not be pissed with the moody waitress just now, because then maybe her boyfriend just broke up with her today?

HAH! Maybe I am not idealistic, but rather, I am pretty optimistic? Everybody deserves to be given that little benefit of the doubt after all.