PINCH!

I can't take it anymore!!!! My cousin's lil french baby is sooooooooo CUTE!!!!!!!!! *pinches him* I want to hug him!!!!!!!

Initially, my cousin was pissed that dear lil clement got the chinese looks instead of the french looks.....but still extremely cute nevertheless!

check out his newborn small eyed pic

and how his eyes have OPENED in 2 and a half months later!!!!

*chew chew*

still trying to chew 2 and a half months later

OOOOOOOOooooooooo

I wonder will he ever know that there is this Malaysian auntie going gaga over his smile and cheeks!

All the more reason for me to go to France!!! *wink*

Meeting Dad

It's been a long time since I last talked to a parent and felt that I am being heard. Thank you, Dad. I guess one of the reasons that I will always go back to my Dad no matter how many times he chose to abandon me is because that I have always enjoyed my Dad's company. And deep down, I miss my Dad's presence so much. The feeling has been buried there, unknown and unrealised for such a long time already, that it took me centuries to notice it. My dear heart aches and longs to tell my Dad and Mom how much I miss those times when everything doesn't matter much, when even complicated things appear simple and sweet. How much I miss seeing the 2 of them together. How much I miss those times when it was only 3 of us. Things that sound so simple to accomplish but yet I know will never happen.

Maybe if Dad had found himself a partner, it wouldn't have been so hard for me. Seeing him alone, at the age of 59, with no money and still riding a bike to work, is simply killing for me.

I miss talking to him so. To tell him what I have accomplished in life so far. To see him nod and give me the proud smile. To cry on his shoulder and tell him I miss him so. And that I am sorry for not being there for him.

It has been 13 years since the seperation but I guess there are just certain things that you can't possibly get over it. And it doesn't help that I am such an emotional pig.

Next time, if you do want to get a divorce, only do it when your kids are either TOO YOUNG to know what's happening or TOO OLD to be bothered by it. Kids at the age range of 9 to 15 (I think) just can't handle it as well, I suppose. It IS traumatising no matter how common divorce is nowadays.

And if you are a kid stuck between divorced parents, shut both your ears and do as your heart wishes. It is the only place where the answer to what you REALLY want lies.

Family Matters

Found my dad. Going to meet up with him real soon. Don't know what to expect other than wish that I am working now so I could support my parents. Heart fell to my knees when I heard that my dad is in Jubilee Home for the Aged. THANK GOD, he is only working there, not staying there permanently or else I don't think I will ever get past the awful ache that dwelled in my heart upon hearing his whereabouts.

We have ONE and only one person whom you can truly call as a father. This is one principle that I have been holding on to, one principle that prompted me to look for my dad again though I know deep down that my existence to him is not of utmost importance.

It is sad but I guess I have learnt to accept it throughout these years. what else could I do then? *smile*

and we........

WON the competition!

Losing the world

In China and Japan, this is the hottest winter in their 167 years where ice skating is not even permitted and ice carving competition in Japan was having difficulties due to the constant melting of ice.

In States and Canada, winter hits its coldest with -35 degrees in some states and where your skin, if exposed for 10 minutes, gets frostbitten. Schools have closed down due to the weather.

In Indonesia, Jakarta's flood is getting out of control with UN sending financial aids and food to the victims.

And Bush still wants to ask for USd 147 billion for warfare!

Interesting facts

Mom's got a Fortune Plant lately from my uncle and what does a Fortune Plant usually do? Bring fortune of course (I don't quite buy these things you see)!!!!!!!!!


This one here sprouts out from the egg (see the sand around it) and you get a stalk with some leaves AND a lottery number on it!



Though I strongly believe that plants sprout from seeds and not eggs.

Second interesting fact is that, I dont have to spend SGD 3.50 on one bowl of soup anymore! I BOIL soup myself now! Interesting right? *laughs*

My chicken soup! I have recently boiled watercress too! But really, it wasnt much of a success to boast =P

Inter hall dance

Now, THIS includes me! :) Due to the number of times I have to dance in a week (that's a lot of times with the minimum of 4).... I have succumbed to my usual injuries again *sob*

Come, say it with me...

OUCH!

But all in all, I think we look pretty awesome in this...



And the competition is on the 13th Feb! We simply HAVE to win this thing!*faint*

Inter hall cheerleading

Here are the few mascots that I think are pretty cute:


chun li Mr. cupid Ninja turtles


and my fave mascot!

Spongebob! check out the skinny legs!


These are the pics of the various cheerleaders.....

Missed those times when I was one too! *smiles*

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I am unhappy at this moment. And I don't know what to do..nor do i feel sleepy enough to sleep...nor do I want to talk to anyone right now. I somehow don't feel very happy for these past few days and no, it is not that time of the month.

In the process of striving to make everyone happy, I make the people around me becoming distant.

There are so many things I want to say but ... I can't bring myself to it. There are times that I think I need help but at the same time, I think I will be fine.

I just need some time off.

That's all.

A sore heart

Sometimes there is this sore inside you that .. that ... it's so hard for you to put the soreness into words....to express how sad the feeling is, you know?

Just talked to Mom ... things aren't going very well at home ... but the numerous times I have thanked God for being me... you have no idea... *smiles*

I thank God for the positive outlook I have in life even when things are down
I thank God for the belief that I put in every problem, that there is always a solution to it
I thank God for the strong faith that was bequeathed upon me, the faith that has brought me a long way
I thank God for the short memory that I have for I tend to forgive and forget easily
I thank God for empowering me with the strength that I have within, to overcome the trials and tribulations that I have encountered
I thank God for all the twists of fate, for every fate, I believe, happens for a reason and it is always for the better
I thank God for preserving the capabilities in me to go on courageously

Here is something to share, something that I hold on to:

The earth is empty.
The trees once thick with blossom stand dead against the bitter sky.
The streams are frozen.
The heart has lost all hope.
But see-along the branches
new buds appear and greeness pushes through the ground unnoticed
Spring may be slow-
but will at last return

-by A Gift of Hope given to me by my Darling

Lish dear, Ian will be fine and do have faith in that little boy. My heart goes out to him but he is one hell of a fighter, remember that!

Darling Attempting to Fly a Kite

When we were back in Penang, Darling and I brought mommy and lil nephew out for dinner and a walk around the ever popular Gurney Drive.

We walked around after dinner and saw one of the stalls selling the super cute tiny kite and I was definitely tempted to buy it for my lil nephew to play with!

Darling: Let the man do the tough part. (his hand reaching for the kite)

A few minutes later.....

Darling was frantically pulling and tugging at the tiny kite

Sigh...The kite just wouldn't listen to the man

ARGH.....the man shall NOT give up!

A good 15 minutes later.....

SIGH.

Poor lil nephew was so desperate he nearly resorted to fly the kite while riding behind my Darling's car. *shakes head*

New Year Resolutions

I don't actually think this is the full list because I am one forgetful person and you know how things just flickered through your mind and then you siad "Yes, I 'll do it" but you just plain forget after that? Anyway, here are the few that I could come up with at the moment.

1. To spill my guts and go after the things I really want in life.
I have been really quite sick of myself for not doing the things I've always wanted to do, giving nonsensical reasons. I realised that reasons and excuses will always be there but it is down here in your heart, on whether you want to acknowledge its presence.

2. To socialise more
I know, I know. You will be saying " What is this girl trying to say?Is she mocking me?". I have always appeared to be a social butterfly (which I think I am not) but I do agree that I need people around me. People that can be called friends. And I do think my social circle here is very small and sometimes I do feel.... suffocated... like you know, I am in the middle of the circle of friends and the circle is really small... hahahahah..no, I am not joking.

3. To be nicer to the people around me
It's no point making friends and not keeping them. Then you shouldn't make friends at all to begin with. I wish to not participate in any bitching but I do realise there is a fine line between giving opinions and bitching, darn. Oh, I would also like to be warmer towards strangers, say, the cleaners, the food sellers etc.

4. To work hard and not slack........too much...ehehheeh
I tend to slack at times and when I slack... gosh I am like a pro in it. Procrastinating every single little thing!

5. To take care of my family more
I do feel like I am the "son" of the family at times :) and I would want to meet my dad again. No matter how angry I was towards him, sins can be forgiven, wounds can be healed. It leaves scars of course but a dad's always a dad. I do not want to regret for certain things I didn't do now later in life. Yeah, I do miss him.

6. To exercise more for health reasons
I have been getting aches recently and I believe I need a healthy heart. Everyone needs a healthy heart, what am I talking?

7. To join an outreach programme
I talked to a friend recently who ignited and reminded my passion towards helping others and I wonder why I havent been doing it all this while. I wanted to join the Red Cross here but just because they might take up my holiday time as well, I didn't bother to question further. ARGH. But he just gave me a number, someone whom I can ring up if I want to join a programme as such. I want to do it but at the same time, I think what's holding me back is the time that is needed. We'll see.

8. To save money
This is something challenging to me. :) I need to freaking save! Darling and I moving out from hostel soon! Please please please let us find a studio apartment........that is cheap, nice AND furnished! wakakakak

9. To learn cooking
It's not that I don't want to cook but cooking in hostel IS really a hassle. For one, the kitchen is damn far from my room. And sometimes you get people pouring noodles or what nonsense all over the place. I promise I will do better in our own house k hon?

ok. Thats all for now!

Pictures according to the row from left to right:

1. My bro in law with my second cheeky niece in a nice cosy cafe eating tonnes of wan than mee in Yau Ma Tei

2. We spent 1000 dollars on lunch in the posh restaurant in Victoria's Peak. Darn expensive but nice.

3. EA games simulator in Victoria's Peak.

4. The famous Disney train!

5. Tai Yu Shan aka Lantau Island viewing the World's Largest Seated Buddha

6. Upclose.

7. Tai-O, a homely fishing village where you can just buy the fishes from the fishermen and bring the live fish into a restaurant.

8. "Ham Yu" or famous salty fishes

9. Fishermen's Wharf in Macau. Beautiful achitecture, a mix of Portugese and Chinese

10. The popular Sands Casino, by Las Vegas, one of the 28 casinos in Macau.

11. The coliseum look alike

12. Fishermen's Wharf still.

13. Avenue of Stars

HAhahah i know this is a lousy update of HK trip but I dont have the pics with me now. Just these few sad ones :)



And my beloved nieces and nephew with their favourite foot..... they insisted on taking individual pics with Mr.Foot Reflexology *smiles*

26th of December 2006

Particularly a memorable day. A day lof little births :) This mother Minnie here (the name's sounds corny but was given by my niece and nephew..poor things...) gave birth to 4 little babies!

One of the tiny little adorable hairless pinkish baby

upclose picture of the tiny little adorable hairless pinkish baby

a week later....tiny little adorable hairless pinkish babies with blackheads

And the not so little, cute baby delivered by mother Miko (see that clump of black hair next to her?). Born on the same day too!

Cheers to the little ones!